11/29/2005
10:33 am
And you do it like this!
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hehehez...suddenly my mind goes blank...dunno wad to write..hahakz..
--if you're seeing sumone, even if it has been onli platonic in the past, the relationship is probably about to deepen considerably, and when you least expect it.
--without any warning, the person you love best on the planet -romantically, that is- will cross ur mind. whether he or she's right beside you or a thousand miles away, say how u feel.
been feeling shitty lately. emotions swinging to and fro. dunno y. ppl been bugging me bout stuff. and i am sick of it! just leave me alone. i know how to deal wif my life. and i shall live the way i want it. whether i smoke or get high on drugs..or drunk on booze..i have made the desicion. something have been bothering be badly. dunno y am i so keen on continuing it. even though its over. maybe im just soo into it. and i cant pull myself out. even though its fun..but the question mark just hangs there..and the older i get...the question marks starts adding on..and soon ppl will notice..and the day will come..when i have to answer for my actions...and i know..i'll try my best to run away from it definitely...
suddenly been feeling like hiding myself. just disappear for awhile. but my mind is telling me not to. it will just make things worst. add to dat still having slow recover over this stupid flu. and not enuff sleep just slows it down further. i tot by going training..maybe it will help lar. running does makes u feel better. but to no avail. maybe i didnt run much i guess...but nvm lar. see how. one more month to school...teachers been advising me to buck up on my maths..and shit i haven started anithing...plus!!.when am i going to start my fitness sia. okie2...
1 more hour to meeting adam and salleh. going off to queensway..coz adam buying boots. and perhaps i want to get my hands on the adidas torpedo. and its confirm $30 na..man! i need a bubble tea now.. all thks to ramdan im craving for the ice blended blue coral. hahakz...yesterday nite while coming home..all 4 of us buy bubble tea and start shooting the pearls ard. hahakz. i feel like a juggler sia..juggling all sort of problems...just waiting for one of em to drop...den i have to answer for it lar.
next up...singapore got kicked out of the soccer sea games. hahakz! indonesia beat laos 4-0 man.i would have been rich lar...if onli had place a bet. tsk wasted. but nvm. got nothing to do now sia. okie lar..see how tonite. hope to enjoy my self..gonna get playing cards and dunno if want to bring guitar anot..
okie2..its 1130 now..just received news...camp cancelled. argh!!.. and the trip to queensway also cancelled. shit..now have to wait again to get the ball..argh!..was just tinking of having some fun. and there goes. but still everithing is on. just the sleep over part is cancelled. but im tinking of staying over for the bbq. do some team bonding. we need dat badly sia. the team is silently crashing apart. ppl pulling out..not coming for training. just makes things worst. teammates frequently change...so its hard to adapt to different styles of play instantly. its just unfair for those hu come. *blink2*..guilty!.. saha said the teachers are showing signs of giving up on the team. especially after the whacking we got at the 10s.
'we already had seen the fruit of our labour arh! guys!..nothing!' quoted from saha. c'mon guys...i feel like kicking a soccer ball now..not just kick man...but give realli hard whack at it..dat will help release stress. i cant continue my old habit of punching the wall animore...now my left hand is slightly weaker at grabbing stuff. just now i took a cup from the table wif my left hand and dropped it. just like dat..drop...u know lar..the after effects...where mom goes.."BLABLABLABLA!!! BLABLA!! ABLABLA! BLABLABLA!!! BLABLA!!" dad said want to buy punching bag..dats great sia...hehehz...dats just makes my painful life easier...dunno want to put sand or cement in the bag sey. hahakz...i tried a cemented punching bag...and it was super painful if u dun properly pad it. okie2...sand will do. maybe after the punching bag...i'll ask my bro for a pull-up bar...pai seh sia go fitness corner. hahakz..
okie lar...1230 already...meeting ramdan adam and salleh at bb. bubble tea!! hahakz..missing sumbody already man...haiz..
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