11/12/2006
12:11 am
And you do it like this!
RE:
it a long 10 days since my last post. so much has happened. yet i have not realli moved on in life. still stuck in MI. not because im forced to but i want to. cant bear to part with the best 2 years of my life. especially when i reached year 2.
how fun it was. lessons, PE, rugby, frens, and sweetheart.
but yeah, i wasnt cut out for A lvl. made the wrong choice 2 years ago. which was indeed the right one. recollecting the whole of dis year makes me want to smile and cry at the same time.
im soo going to miss PE. playing soccer wif the hockey goal posts. getting angry at ppl not running. and just doing conditioning. miss running out of sch to the nature reserve with mr veloo and the health n fitness team.
and i'll miss playing rugby wif MI. the great rugby camp and pysching up. missing lessons for matches. im soo fucking going to miss playing A div matches. last season just wasnt enuff. yet to pay back my dues to NYJC. my fav match ever. the onli match we playing like heroes, like titans.
im going to miss crapping with debby abt f maths, sleep duing chem prac, talk and talk during lectures, throw wet tissue on white board during chem tutorial, do matsh homework during physic tutorial. and drift my mind away to wad im going to do after sch during gp and sleep with my eyes open during maths lesson.
argh!! im going to miss my frens. everibodi. soon veri hard to keep contact already!! and me being busy for most weekends.
and the thing im going to miss most, going to sch wif that special somebody everimorning. 645 was the speculated time and im always late. always, yet shes always waiting fer me. veri sweet eh! drink milo, and aloot of other stuff dat i will tell u personally. not here.
10s today. 2 years i''ve waited. finally i scored a try. it felt good to place the ball behind the line. the feeling that u gained something after so much resistant. and its worth everi slap, punch and whack i got. even though we played veri badly today, yet i can see the potential. a 10s team in just 2 weeks or 4 training. its good enuff we werent the whipping boys. yet still not good enuff.
was utterly dissapointed wif myself today too. i was sure i had a personal agenda of not following the gameplan. and i was guilty for dat during the first game. it was just too tempting. i forgot that there was 9 other people watching my back as i tried to accomplished my personal agenda. selfish. that was just it. but dat was not all.
i have to keep reminding myself to watch my tone. im a rowdy at heart but dat doesnt mean others are as rough as me. yeah, i tink its true now. im just too much.
I need someone to show me
The things in life that I can't find
I can't see the things that make true happiness
I must be blind
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________