12/30/2006
7:09 pm
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Nash: Saddam has been executed. Will it stop the violence?
Bush: It will not but it is a milestone in Iraq history.
Nash: The dictator's gone, yet no promises of declining violence. What more must we face for world peace? Another war? What an irony!
Bush: *Shrugs*
It was fun at first, but suddenly everything became really a scarry. The last 2 hours, i know. I felt fear. Fear of mom and frens. Cold solid fear sitting down on my chest laughing at me as i try to think of as many ways to get rid of it but i couldnt even think. I couldnt sit. My head spin if i did. I tried fighting it. I gave up. Jack told me to give it time. I just realised how vulnerable i was at the moment in time, yet as i was at my most vulnerable, there were those who still help to watch over me. Thanks indeed. Eventho i can only grasp on bits of flashback, im sure something changed. Changed as in people who knew what happen seems to be treating me differently. What happen?! What did i say?! Why isnt anybody talking? I feel like as if i offended all of you but was forgiven because of the state i was in. Im sorry...
The new school is splendid. Everything is big. Huge! But, i find it boring that its so close to home. i have to go to school alone. THAT is damn boring. Push all that aside. It does feel weird. A retainee who wasnt meant to be. I hate to face the teachers. But i got no choice. In the pursuit for A level, i have to make sacrifices of which i love to hang on to. I hate school holidays. its the same as running. When you are in the momentum, its easy to go, but once u stop, its hard go gain the momentum back. But i have to do it. And the sight of him makes me squirm. What a loser. A boy who isnt wearing pants at all. So sad. Well, i made a pact to not let him be the talking point of any moment in my life. If people were to ask, its just a simple *Don't-know-shrug*. Lets leave all that stupid crap in the past. I want to go forward!
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________
12/28/2006
1:29 pm
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the complexity of a boy's mind.
cracks me up! haha..
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________
12/24/2006
10:55 pm
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i though i can spend the holidays just slacking. go to the beach and swim, play soccer, watch loads of movies, and just chill somewhere. but it has become something which is totally out of my expectation. work is one. wedding is definitely the most tiring thing. to add to that all the late nights.
but no matter how tiring that day is, its always fun. worth the perks that comes with it such as headaches, cranky feelings , mood swings and aching body. for example, the recent rugby match. its was totalli bullshit. dat i have to agree. i didnt go for training. infact, i tot dat friday was training and i was free of duties to come for it. only they day b4 i was inform that a match was set. so yeah. i knew i'd play like shit. had not run in ages. fitness is...nvm. dats a very sensitive topic for me. so lets go on with the match. individual play for me, defintely.
i was all out to have fun and with vengence on my mind. those bloody assholes stole my shoes. coincidentally i scored 2 tries thru dat round-robin with greenridge and jurong sec. Jurong ruggers are very nice chaps. learn afew strategy and taught some dirty stuff to them. haha! i'd do anithing thing to wreck havoc to greenridge which i did and with awesome result. that was the first match which i realli snapped. with ah chuan as ref. i had to sub myself out. i had my reasons. my motive of the game changed from playing rugby to fight. with ur coach as ref, the last thing i want is he himself giving me a red card for stomping of someone's head. enuff said. moving on.
it was a totalli awesome wedding. the dance floor open very early and was on fire by the time we reach the final hour. and by the time we finish, my hand was in an awkward position. 10 secs later den i realised, my forearm got cramp. i dunno man. but i have to say this. i notice that guys dancing to hindi numbers, are fucking!! lame man. the way they dance is realli like crap-no-moves-straight-from-club kinda things which is waaaay stupid to dance to a hindi number especially if its a bhangra song. the girls are waaay more awesome with the moves, and the hip-shake thing. maybe that explain the 6.67 : 1 ratio of girls and boys on the dance floor. and there was onli 3 boys, which onli lasted like 10 mins. the rest of the time were totally girls. haha! c'mon my fellow male marlbarians! practice brothers!
drop the self-concious, 'im cool' attitude and let it loose.
den u will get in the groove! am i right, my ladies?
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________
12/16/2006
10:50 am
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i got this irritating feeling to go to a jamming studio and hit on the drums. and its getting pretty bad. all this exciting songs playing in my head. and suddenly as it comes i would be moving to my sides and get all groovy. which is fun but not good enuff to satisfy my carving for jamming. i hate this tied down feeling. my hands need to roam free. i dont mind if i dun have the drumsticks. my palms will be good enough to hit the table and use them as makeshift conga. whenever i play at weddings, we would have this saying ' dont rush, feel the groove'. and it helps to calm down the fastbeats of the previous songs and get even with the timing of the current song.
planning to get a set of my own and slowly make my own tiny studio. it will take time definitely. but im afraid dat i will get bored of it. on the other hand, i've got healthy competition in the house itself. so probably we have to fight our way to play. haha. one mic for the kick and 2 overhead mics. (me+headphones+drums+mics+cables+computer+acid pro 4.0 = happiness). a dangerous equation that will satisfy my carving for cocanised music. just the bolded part is missing. once i have that, im not leaving my room and i will mix my own music. ohh yeah.
me dabbling with digital music for the past 2 years wasnt a waste of time indeed. the effects i can create by mixing acoustic and digital drums will be awesome. to add to that, a variety of sounds from my SPD. which currently needs to be repaired.(shoot! more money). but still, i have to agree that original sounds is still the best. digital sounds from my spd can give a max of 75% kick only unlike acoustic sound which is ofcourse 100%. i've been yearning to capture that salsa beat. once i perfected that beat, i can use it and incorporate into any songs. and it will make a hell of a difference to listeners and move effect to the people on the dance floor.
music is the only thing that will last till doomsday. so...
spice it up! and get into the groove, my friends.
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________
12/12/2006
3:41 pm
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wad the FUCK is wrong with you people!
its has no bloody connection damn it.
and why let me learn when i cant go forth with it.
its just fucking music. why must family rivalries be involved.
it will only leads to MORE! politics.
and when he has wants!! to make the cut. why the fuck must i do it.
and with a fucking crappy excuse.
lets make it simple. i'll just quit. everything.
nobody let me do what I!! want.
its always what they want me to do and its for their own benefit.
am i a dog? am i a puppet?
and when i fail. they will just kick me in the face.
over and over again.
no thoughts of lending a helping hand.
so simple. i'll just drop the responsibility balls im juggling now.
let the tremors be felt from all 4 corners of my life.
its time i speak up for myself.
its time i sit on the throne of my life.
oohs fra bahh..
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________
12/06/2006
8:46 pm
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i'll live for the memories now.
its 1707hrs now.
1896 hours or,
113760 minutes or,
6825600 seconds ago
i made a decision.
nn once regret abt it.
project pyro. it will always burn. always..
for click! for linger by the cranberries.
realli..from the bottom of the heart, thanks for all the memories, for sharing the laughter and joy in life. n spending 3 months of your life putting up with me. u taught me so much. u showed me the world. shower me with unconditional love. nv once i regretted the decision i made 3 months 17 days ago. my fears are catching up on me. i will never forget you. i cant. the girl hu took my breath away. Jacqueline Jacob. i will miss u. oh god help me. i love u baby always..always..
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________
12/02/2006
2:20 pm
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fucking crazy saturday sia. started with training with i vomitted all the water i drank. see wad happens when u dun have breakfast in the morning. wake up late samo lar!
den headed to vivo with a mat and a minah. i also dunno they hu sia. follow me ard onli. haha. slack at coffebean stealing other people coffee. right anot salleh?! hehe. and went ard looking for frens on holiday jobs. carl lewis was at vivo yesterday. and i cant believe there is ppl out there hu dont know hu is carl lewis. hes one of the best runners u see on tv. the ppl u see running during olympic. the guy hu got gold. hu poses with the 'medal-bite' pose. yeah hes the one.
headed home after dat. den we planned to go fishing at east coast. but mom said no. so salleh and sadiq lepak here. we got like nothing to do ar and its like 230 am in the morning. den we started shooting crappy ideas lar. salleh got car. wanted to throw water bombs lar..go disturb girls at geylang lar. find bapuk lar. last last we ending up with the plan to go to the cemetery. fucking funny sia. play with the horn and stuff. den reach the cemetary. damn creepy man. and the best is we got it all on tape. brought a video camera along also. den we started doing handstands in the middle of the road and all. den nearly got chased by dogs. damn fun sia.
den headed back to my hse, got some money and headed to al ameen to chill. drink teh susu. dunno y but when we first went off i had this hunch to bring the rugby ball along also. and we did use it. at 5 am in the morning, we play touch in the al ameen carpark. 4 of us. me salleh sadiq and my brother. stupid sia. den we came back home and salleh went home. me and sadiq still cannot sleep. and watch hindi movie samo. but soon. cannot tahan already. slept till like 12 like dat.
fuck, it was damn damn fun. must watch the video. 4 bloody hell pussies go cemetery. we didnt reali drive thru. too scared. onli drive past the lane which scared the shit also. the full moon covered with clouds, made it more exciting sia. must go again. maybe with more people!! den more fun.
tml got wedding. monday working in the morning. later going to play soccer. i miss babygirl veri much. soo long nv seee her. too long infact. still counting the hours. haiz..
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________