12/30/2006
7:09 pm
And you do it like this!
RE:
Nash: Saddam has been executed. Will it stop the violence?
Bush: It will not but it is a milestone in Iraq history.
Nash: The dictator's gone, yet no promises of declining violence. What more must we face for world peace? Another war? What an irony!
Bush: *Shrugs*
It was fun at first, but suddenly everything became really a scarry. The last 2 hours, i know. I felt fear. Fear of mom and frens. Cold solid fear sitting down on my chest laughing at me as i try to think of as many ways to get rid of it but i couldnt even think. I couldnt sit. My head spin if i did. I tried fighting it. I gave up. Jack told me to give it time. I just realised how vulnerable i was at the moment in time, yet as i was at my most vulnerable, there were those who still help to watch over me. Thanks indeed. Eventho i can only grasp on bits of flashback, im sure something changed. Changed as in people who knew what happen seems to be treating me differently. What happen?! What did i say?! Why isnt anybody talking? I feel like as if i offended all of you but was forgiven because of the state i was in. Im sorry...
The new school is splendid. Everything is big. Huge! But, i find it boring that its so close to home. i have to go to school alone. THAT is damn boring. Push all that aside. It does feel weird. A retainee who wasnt meant to be. I hate to face the teachers. But i got no choice. In the pursuit for A level, i have to make sacrifices of which i love to hang on to. I hate school holidays. its the same as running. When you are in the momentum, its easy to go, but once u stop, its hard go gain the momentum back. But i have to do it. And the sight of him makes me squirm. What a loser. A boy who isnt wearing pants at all. So sad. Well, i made a pact to not let him be the talking point of any moment in my life. If people were to ask, its just a simple *Don't-know-shrug*. Lets leave all that stupid crap in the past. I want to go forward!
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________