2/11/2007
3:41 pm
And you do it like this!
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Exams are over!! CA! good bye! Actually, im quite afraid of the outcome. i have no idea what to expect. did i study the right stuff? did i study correctly? did i asnwer the qns? or was i just stating wad im not suppose to? we will soon find out. im soo afraid for my physic and maths. chem paper wad good lar. can answer and understand almost everithing but i had some careless mistakes and misintrepretation of some concepts. but physic is the scarry one! i freaked out at the first mcq qn! my mind just went blank. but ok lar..quickly moveed on to other qns dat i can do. just wasted dat i didnt finish section c. was out of time and too late to quickly scribble down the answer. maths was ok also. some qn can do and some cant. well wads new aniway. haha!
end of CA means full force rugby! time to prepare for A divs already. fitness skills and all. and just in time too! the field is ready and some boys are planning to practice their conversions tml. We played the RSN 10s for the first time yesterday. it was a hell of emotions. from happiness to sadness to even spirit-breaking! nevertheless it was a very good learn point and an awesome platform to get to know people and gather contacts for friendlies and spot talents and learn exciting new skills. and the ex-sajc scrumhalf was a very2 good referee. he made good calls and judgements. and another ref was just a plain asshole! dis is nothing new ar. coz we encounter him in the last a divs too. im at my lowest morale everi since i played rugby. yesterday was the first time i felt fear while walking into a game. the trashing from the previous game really sort of a shock for me. we underestimated TP. and i dun blame anibody but myself as im the most experienced he fielded. i made a wrong call of spread the forwards wide to cover a wider range as we are receiving. dat fired back as it took a longer time for them to come support me when i got the ball. in the end, i lost my confidence and i just went haywire, and playing half-heartedly.
den i got to know dat our last match was nyjc. and its either win and bring back something or go back with nothing. it was definitely the perfect setting for personal revenge and as well as for the last A divs. our closest chance to clinching a top 4 medal was lost to them. but i had no confidence to play this last game unless ah chuan field our best players in which he did. it was like the final minutes, something happen, i couldnt remember clearly eventho it happened infront of me and the next thing i knew anthony was sprinting from our 22 to their their tryline and scored the try under the post. seconds later the whistle was blown and we won them. i swear i cried as i went ard hugging my team mates especially those who experience the heart wrenching moment of losing to them last year. revenge is sweet. hopefully we meet again coz i didnt had enuff! wish the old team was there to savour the dismayed faces of the nyjc players! eventho so much joy was being shared around as we head back to our stands, ah chuan came to me and told me that i didnt play well. i wasnt playing like i used to. he said i had to gain my confidence back and fast. but how do i do dat?! i cant go ard asking for more greenridge matches so dat i can trash and hurt them to gain confidence.
maybe its time i start trusting the new players. the new brothers in the family. that way, i can play comfortably knowing dat 14 brothers are watching my back and im watching theirs. i want to play pjc! ACSi senior team. i want to play SAJC. i want to play the RSN navy team. and of course our alumni. these teams are good teams to play.they will teach us a lesson that must be learned so that we can be ready for A divs.
still cant decide wad boots to buy. heh! im getting into dis ritual of buying new boots for each season. i would love to get the adidas regulator or flanker 2. buy its not on sale animore. and im already convinced into buying track shoes for running thanks to dat special someone. no more stupid2 shoes which in the end hurt my back. i am astonish at the fact that alot of technology is used in the manufacture of track shoes and there are 3 types (neutral,support and control) of many many2 design. spoilt for choice ar. but it will be weird playing soccer with track shoes. it feels awkward to kick the ball. i like the feeling of pressure from the ball on my feet. but nvm. can always play soccer barefooted. haha!
it feels like a short weekend. im both longing for sch because there is no exams yet and not longing for school because its a tiring weekend. still recovering from the knocks and stomps. the usual aches and sores of a game. still feeling sleepy even after a 10 hr sleep. aniways 515pm already. ring! ring! hehe!
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