8/04/2008
7:11 pm
And you do it like this!
RE:
answers for sale
what have i done?!what am i doing?!
numerous examples lay peacefully before me.all had a fairytale ending.but why is it bothering me? is it insecurity?is it trust? how do i find answers?who do i turn to?who CAN i turn to?
have i neglected my family that long,till the point that trust is a mere word?its complicated, too complicated. in a lineage squeezed between pride and prejudice,breaking free is taboo! unless there is others to revolt together beside me. maybe then,i'll realise that im not alone and im not walking down this path alone.maybe then, such problems will not matter to me.
A soul who believes that failing will only make one a better person and perfection isn't everything.And that soul has not been allowed to practice his beliefs.
YET,im afraid of failure.its painful.its demoralizing.the muriels i had to paint over old wounds to cover the scars took along time to complete.
i now believe that an unregretful decision can only be made with proper advice and assurance.A decision taken hastily will only lead to remorse.
im old enough to realised that living day to day is a thing of the past.im old enough to know that it is very important the achieve my mid-term goals.in contrary, im afraid to think about my long term goals. only the journey is written, the destiny is awaiting to be carved by time.
as much as i dream of a life where the future is unknown, i cant fulfill it because the flaw of such dreams lies at the fact that what i do will affect the others around me.i wish i had the whole world to myself,but at the same time life would be so boring being all alone.
i have found my answer.
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________