8/09/2008
8:34 am
And you do it like this!
RE:
problems problems problems.
Problem problem problem.
i hav to agree my life isnt the worst case scenario of a problematic life. im sure there are others out there who are going through worst that wad i tink hell is to me. now comes the time of my life which give me so much problems, so much stress it even haunts me in my dreams. its like a swinging pendulum. one moment everything is bliss! and in a split second its all shitty.
but being an optimistic person with a handful experience with problems, i choose to shut it all away and show no emotion. in other words 'i dun care'. it does affects me. the littlest things that changes affects me because i am not very adaptable. i used to depend on the chance that when all is good i depended on it to feul my happiness. but time and again i get dissapoint as the fuels run out. over the years, as i mature, i realised that i have to find my own fuel for my own happiness.
someone once told me that 'siblings are god-given choice upon you whereas friends are choices at ur own freewill'. hence choose your friends wisely. i miss sadiq.i miss salleh.they are very busy nowadays. how i wish i had gone to army instead so that when we ORD..we do it together! but like i say, things changes. so now i hav to go hunting for fuels again in this fuel-scarce world.i hate to do this. as anti-social as i can be, i hav a hard time making friends. i hate to be superficial. i want to make friends with ppl who knows me, my attitude, my crudeness, my jokes, my tantrums, those who share common interest with me and the ones who i can share my problems and thoughts with.
wouldnt all of that be fun? life short :) enjoy it while it last!
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________