1/27/2009
12:01 pm
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memoirs
a short trip to malacca. and a day at the beach. in such a short span of time, i found things to do that helps to keep my mind of things. and now im back. going back in tonite. kinda mixed feelings. now im feeling lazy to go back to the same routine. 5am mornings, exercise, study, swimming, dojo. but only for the next 3 days den comes another weekend. and to make matters worst, i will only pass out 2 months after the 'shud be' date.
the only good thing is, it will be a grand pass out. because of the OCTs and some contigent in brunei. and the boring part is, i'll be in police uniform, while they will be in smart one. stealing the show. i've yet to complete my log book, shine my boots, iron my uni and memorise the pledge. besides, there is always inspection every first day of the week.
its my mom's birthday tomorrow. and i will be in camp. it sucks being the property of the government. i miss my pink ic. and it will be another 365 days plus another 330 days or so before i get it back. i feel like im in prison. haha. i miss my family. i miss my nieces, my friends. but there is a need to run! to disappear. start afresh.
that is what u get when u mess with things that arent meant to be or suppose to be. heh. im looking forward to weddings. lots of weddings. i miss music, i miss being free.
i will never forget that nite when u sang me this song over the phone....its just beautiful.
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________
1/26/2009
2:24 am
And you do it like this!
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fresh start...
life is a gamble. you win some, you lose some.
things will never be the same.its hard to convince myself. i guess its karma. i must have done something to deserve it.
BUT...
"it ain't about how hard you hit.it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.it's about how much you can take and STILL keep moving forward.thats how winning is done!" - Rocky Balboa.
i will pick myself up. and keep going forward. i have goals to achieve.
anyways, this 2 videos show how aamir khan got his body his new hindi movie. for a 40+ year old guy to do 24 pull ups in less den a year, i tink its an awesome feat. if he can do it, so do i. discipline!
i just realised that it is a norm for trainees serving NS to run 5km almost everyday. the first run of something new is always tiring. but the feeling of satisfaction after the completion makes u carve for more. now i look forward to physical training. for that moment when u feel 'high' after accomplishing something. and im having my first of 4 ippt on my birthday. pass, silver gold? will it be a great present? hmmmm...ofcourse im aiming for the highest. but a pass will be enough for now. and i cant remember when was the last time i passed something.
when i run, i tend to challenge myself, that i can do better than him, or better den him and so on.i keep a mental record of whom i finish after, only to chase that guy when we run again. my arms dun shiver when im left in push up position. buddha claps is like candy for me. burpees, sit ups, alternate leg shuffles and many other forms of punishment is now convincingly beneficial. the only thing i hate is when i have to do punishment in anything other den PT kit. imagine u put that sleek and cripsy uniform on, smelling all nice and fresh. then when u assembly to march off to class, they tell u, 'to ur left palms down'. under the hot sun, u begin to sweat, the shiny boots began to crack. all the effort to make it look shiny like glass goes down the drain. den ur mood gets spoilt because of the harsh words used. and police uniform isnt comfortable even before u sweat in it.
atleast in PT kit, u know ur going to get trashed. u know ur gonna bathe in ur sweat.NS is so unpredictable. thats why im enjoying it! now i cant wait to book in. heh.
im gonna start the oat regime.together with maybe less rice first. its a lot of work, but seeing is believing. u dun get abs thru working out. its a combination of dieting and exercise. i want to be fit and strong and most importantly feel good. what other time to do it den now.
abs by my 21st bdae? impossible! haha.
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________
1/17/2009
9:25 am
And you do it like this!
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Sedi...YA!
at first i was damn excited about it. but then when the enlistment date gets nearer, i started feeling fear and laziness. i was so couldnt be bothered, i turn up with just clothes and other basic necessities. i didnt even read the booklet they send on wad admin stuff i need to bring.
first 3 days was horrible.it seems like they were unreasonable,always punishing and out to get you all the time. by the fourth day, my FI stashed away his ranking and talk to us as a friend. what he said wad truly enriching and changed my perception of NS. it is what you want it to be. it is a punishment if u want it to be. it is a form of traing which is good for you, if u want it to be. there was also alot of welfare for us.we had no training for that day.and the remaining confinement days was awesome.
march, jog, run, jump, pumping an all other sort of exercise stuff.it was damn awesome. and because of MC, i missed the defence tactics class and they had a little touch rugby tournament which i also missed.for now, my squad mates form up very well. we are like a happy go lucky bunch of people. afew bloody jokers in my squad makes our squad famous amongs the instructors for entertainment or to pass by time by giving 'PT'. haha.
after being off for a long time, now i realise the people who would miss me and truly care for my well being. there are plenty of friends. but gems are rare to find. its a short weekend for me. got a wedding dinner to work at and a music practice to go to. den it off to chalet for another week!
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________
1/15/2009
7:12 pm
And you do it like this!
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ouch!
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________
1/05/2009
4:43 pm
And you do it like this!
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finally!
just in case i die doing pull ups or something humiliating, i would like share my will with you all. my beloved possessions. my boots will go to saha and rama. share em. just dun score the amount of tries i did with them. score more. put some value in it.haha
my mp3 and headphones, i will give to my brothers, whoever wants it can have it. its a real cool gadget. take care of it. and my beloved com, i shall leave it for my family. it anything goes wrong, get the next computer genius to fix it.
and pass my music instruments to someone who really wants to learn to play music. it will mean alot to me. heh. i tink thats about it.
anyways, im just not sure if im ready. i was bloody hell pumped up to go about a month ago. but now, its seems like boring. maybe i need to get the momentum going. once i start, i may feel like i want to keep it going. i want hard washboard abs. but then, its kinda far-fetched. but ill try. thats wad matters most.
i will miss everything. my friend, my family, music rugby, fico and school.it is so fun to see people getting prepared for school. doing homework. im starting to miss it already. life is so different nowadays. i dunno if and why im changing. my preferences, my mood, my outlook. its all like not me.
its so sad to celebrate my 21st in camp. but then again, like i told my friend, i dun want a party. i want to have fun. like go east coast for a picnic fun, or go pulau ubin to cycle fun. or like i book fico for 4 hours and have my 21st birthday there. wont that be fun? can play touch rugby and stuff and like hold a tournament.while i went for cake hunting with a little girl just now, i came across this idea of my 21st birthday cake. i tot of like having king of spade and ace of spade designs on my cake. blackjack! or 21!. how cool is that right?!
lets put big dreams aside. as you all may have known by now, i failed my TP test. circuit 8 pts. den go out for test route, first junction beat red light. immediate failure and followed by another 36 points. demoralising.maybe it was a blessing in disguise. nobody knows. and next test god knows when.
saha and rama thanks for keeping me occupied when im jobless.sadiq,salleh,nani,wan,jack,feeraz and all, thks for being there when i need you people most.nasser and justin, i wont be miss both you. too bad! see you tomorrow. and to azi for occupying my boring nights with laughter.special thanks to my maka boys. be hip! i'll see u all when i get out definitely. the mi boys for occupying my mornings with trainings.
last but not least. my family. mom dad, nieces, sisters. my bolster my bed. my tv, my shows. haiya. so many things. i love my life. every aspect of it.
till the next time i meet u guys, adios amigos! signing off as a boy one last time!
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________
1/03/2009
5:55 pm
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Let's start off with a bang!
its the new year. 2009. one more year to Singapore's goal 2010. making it to the world cup. and supposedly our new stadium should be 1/3 done. yet, we will pe playing AFC matches there still i tink. nvm.
anyways, driving cocking up bad. im just so afraid that i might not pass. lesson is getting boring because i can drive smoothly. circuit is a breeze and my U-turns, and test routes all familiarised and wadever all la, its all good. but its because i know im practicing.besides, i have soo many instructors, it truly a good idea to like take bits and pieces of their advices and u put all the good things together. its soo much easier to learn.
but the actual test itself is very intimidating. i cant decide to be nice and friendly to the tester, or be a stone and do wad i've been told to do. and the worst thing is i will only get a feel of my actual test car on the test day itself. dat is not really a good idea. so i just pray hard that i get to do it once and do it well. because i haven got time to do it a second time. it will take ages when im in NS. besides, im planning to take my bike license as well while doing time.
new year celebs was awesome. and indeed i drank abit too much. eventho when i was high already, i kept telling myself to stop, but i was afraid the 'high' feeling will dissappear. hence i drown more and more shots. den bam! i felt sick. and bloody hell, they had to play games when im high. the reason people cant drink and drive is because their reaction time slows down. same goes for playing games. u cant drink and play games. people will cheat u, and u will be stupid enuff to agree. haha!
all bummed out. actually, one of them is sleepy. as usual. and the other two, drunk. haha.i dunno why, but i like the next picture. and saha, if u notice, sanjay look like you. or you look like sanjay. not much difference also. haha. from left to right : ivan, justin, sanjay, salleh, syarif and me. not in picture, jack, wan and the girls. and that girl in the background isnt chinese nor ang moh or malay. shes indian. nemo something devi is her name. and nash is her game! hahaha! and i was asleep in the pic, i wasnt peeping or anything.
apparently, the above 2 pictures are pictures in the same situation. same setting. just different models. i was told, that i was in the 2nd picture. as u can see, pretty much u cant see anything. they must have switch off flash. bastard sia. making fun of skin colour all. racist. tsk2...anyways, there was alot of foreign workers. i have no idea since when sentosa became their hotspot. wad happen to serangoon road and mustafa centre? but they were pretty much a happy bunch of people just getting into the groove of 2009. just pray hard that most of you all dun get deported back due to recession.
and i lost alot of money. i have no idea why, i was winning in the beginning but when we switch games, my luck ran out. it was fucking irritating. but den, thats gambling.haha.
still counting down. 3 more days to booking in. and 2 more days to pray hard.
________________Your's truly, Nashady__________________