_The Real Nashady is here__

summary since last two post

2009-12-03T12:22:00.002+08:00

summary since my last 2 post...

clashes...i haven had time to watch soccer. i would meet up at coffeeshop to watch with the maka boys, then convince them to come over to my house and watch. and when the matches start, im snoozing. next thing i knew they will wake me up and tell me dat dah habis pun and they gg home already.

work has been great, i fit in well with my team. they enjoy my weird habits and crazy moments. other den that, i miss sleeping for 5 consecutive nites in a week. or make dat 3...its been almost 3 months. how sad..just when im all snugged and happy, things are going to change. for better or worst, its already december. i'll find out soon enuff.

finally i need to change my passport. and its a bloody long process. lazy to take photo, lazy to go post it. lazy to go collect it, lazy to do everything. and im having back aches. very bad back aches. not sure if due to my sleeping posture or blooming digits on the weighing scale. YES im gaining weight. and buying a psp is just making things worst. i tot of ps3 but psp i get to bring to work.

now i have another reason to add for my off day stint at home. sit eat sleep tv computer and psp. all which justify the blooming digits. i'll get all hyped up when i read Men's Health. but then 5 mins later, im at the fridge look for my next fix.

i need to go out more often. i feel like swimming. swimming pool or sea doesnt matter. just a waste dat i went to ECP beach yesterday but wasnt prepared to go for a dip. haiz.

i've met a dead old man, plenty of mats and minah, people who cant speak the basic 4 languages of singapore (but living in SG). crazy people. pretty but crazy people. drug addicts, drunkards. man welding parang. woman screaming for no reason. abundance of busybodies (even man). a rugged and well built man who has a beckham's voice.malay gangsters, chinese gangsters.cute kids who complain of being bullied.stupid people who cannot resolve simlpe disputed.

i admit i was very timid when i first started. but i watch and learn how the orang lama do it. pick up here and there.i learn dat wearing the uniform demands respect immediately. must make our presence felt.always have the upper hand. do not show dat ur afraid.if not sure kene makan. once u kena makan....habis...end of story. lol.

my hari is getting longer and i dun want to it. i want it to be even longer. den play around with it. den finally cut it super short. and the whole process restarts... till then...

don't fuck with me

2009-11-17T10:57:00.002+08:00

220.255.7.138...that ur IP address,
with IP scanners, i know exactly who you are :)
msg me la, i know u have my number.
besides, i did not delete ur tag, i saved it. just in case i feel like lodging a report.
so pray hard i dont get bored at work one day.

W(F)ork Up life.

2009-08-20T21:02:00.000+08:00

i was right. working life isnt easy one bit. i starting to miss TRACOM, i missed going to school. i missed having fun and nothing to worry about. i still dun mind waking up at 6 am in camp, compared to what im doing now. rush hour, the paperwork, tiredness and fatigue. and i dun get to sleep and rest during the day like we did in TRACOM. i just realised how peaceful life was in there. besides, i was kept fit and now when i look in the mirror, i see my face getting chubby. all breakfast, lunch and dinner with no exercise. no time, tiredness suck all my effort to even try. and coffee is ur bestfriend.

from dreams of walking to work at jurong east npc, i might have to work as far as in sentosa itself. i dunno if that is good or bad. and since the current npc im in are in the process of preparing for audit, we are used as extra labour to help tidy things up. and i tell u, its really tiring. soo many paperwork to do and to check on. i have a headache when i reach home everyday. how i wish they would just send us to our team a.s.ap. now the promised work on taskforce is a big question mark. *ding ding ding!* morons!...im just hoping to join it as a temp for the experience.

taskforce does things nab people un-nab-able by the easily visible men in blues. and the working hours is basically whenever, wherever. 12?24?36 hours? nobody knows when u can get off work and when u have to come back and how long u have to work. well it seems exciting because we are ready to go and eager to try anithing other den paperwork. since it just temp, i dun mind. besides after im in the team, it hard to transfer, let alone get out.

im missing that someone badly. i dunno why, i cant get her off my mind. till i get distracted now and then in the day tinking of wad to do to get her off my mind. eventho it was a short spin-off, i treasure those moments. i didnt know exactly what happen. but maybe things happened for a reason. if u know who u are..im just telling u i miss you and those times we had together.

the gal who sanged to me.

the end of a trainee

2009-08-07T13:51:00.000+08:00

i've given up my training pass, tested negative for my urine test. pack my bags again for the final time. dekit and collect all my confiscated stuff. no more 2230hrs. no more 6am waterparades, no more sleepy flag-raising, no more fucked up FIs, no more falling in after lights out. no more push ups, jumping jacks. no more raids, bunk inspection. no more polishing of boots. no more mess and all.

now begins the hard part of national service.

yes! believe it or not, those were the easy part of NS life. there are people to take care of you. and now, im out on my own, nobody to look after me, to cover for my mistakes, close an eye for my 'awol'ing behaviour. no more easy MC.any wrong thing leads to alot of paperwork, questioning and charges! i hate that word ; charge.

now 8 days of break

2009-06-06T11:08:00.002+08:00

i skipped the whole of june. no idea why. birthdays passes by. people passes by. the last batch of maka boys are going in for the final head shaving ceremony. and for that we went sheesha with afew other people.

We are the last batch of vocational trainees left in the coy. i never tot i'll be thr dat long to see the 136th intake coming in. and i luuurve new intakes. like how i was on light duty during the 135th fit intake enlistment and walking back to the coy with vinod and this new dude who just cut his hair was marching towards me. im on light duty so i dun have to march. as he was getting close enough i kind of raised my voice and said to him 'Dunno how to greet,is it?' and he said 'Ouh..sorry, good morning sir!..

the power of experience. and noobs! even then when i was botak myself trainees thought we are sumbode! now when i have hair...maybe im tinking of pumping them abit. greeting no kick already.

NPCO training is tough only in the morning. because we have PT. haha. other den dat, we head to class to sleep and eat lunch and sleep more b4 heading back to coy for a smoke, carrom or just interract with others. APOs (airport police officer) left early this week. i'll miss haffiz, fir, yat and khai. its sad that they put the most entertaining people on the same vocation. and all of them left at the same time.

im just hoping when the 136th intake comes in, we dun have to share with them the coy. it wont be fun! arrgh! prep course in delta coy is a big nono!

i had all 4 of my wisdom tooth plucked. a quick yet everlastingly painful surgery. now after a day,my face it still swollen but there isnt blood oozing or in pain. i just have the part when i have to eat. liquid or semi solid food. BORING!

and the antibiotics i get have got this looooong list of side effects which are very scarry by themselves. nvm. i've got 8 days mc. plus weekends. its 12 days before i book in! i want to go shopping, to the beach, watch movies and forget the pain!! PAIN! PAIN! haha...

6 days of break..

2009-04-15T14:40:00.008+08:00

its been a long weekend. i feel aimless this past few days. maybe because BMT is almost over and im going go get smacked back to reality very very soon. which means i have to start preparing for adulthood again after i screwed up my A level results.

Career? what will i do with it? what will i do without it? when will i start having one? and where do i even get started on one? any ideas people? on what i can do? study or work?diplomas? ITE? whr to work, what is a good career for me? i need big help!

A music teacher?or an F1 racer perhaps?

NOT with my Traffic Police test results...

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i was called upon by the MaKa crew to help out with some shopping. this is our first ever outing on a shopping trip. and we are not crazy or anithing. its just about time we get stuff for ourselves. i mean, if girls can watch porn, why cant guys go shopping right?

i was playing with iz's scarf all day along.

we walking around suntec and marina looking for stuff. i was looking for a new top and maybe some 3/4 pants. but i ended up buying rollerblades. i just saw it was on a offer that i couldnt resist. so i decided to buy clothes another time. HOW many girls can do dat? i like what i did! its so unexpected, so sudden. Dhil bought himself a casio watch and something else. fyz bought so many tops and pants. haikerl got himself a nice shirt.

My rollerblades is at the back in blue plastic bag.

Scorpion Force!

den we all got bored and came to my house to watch soccer. since man utd chelsea and arsenal had matches at the same time we figured go no point going teh tarik, cannot change channels. haha! we had dinner, watch abit of soccer and den since i had rollerblades, we all took turns in trying. ooooo it was super fun watching cocks like dhil and haikal roll.

As usual, we can never go home early. so i took out my jenga set and we played jenga according to my camp rules. which was always entertaining for me. den i taught them some other camp games i have before we all went home. see! boys do have innocent fun.

Maka featuring NaShady...Simplistic!

other den dat i went to east coast for cycling, did abit of bowling and had dinner under a pondok. and just the weekend, im dead broke. i spend my evening watching MI get trashed by ACJC and den had kfc for dinner with the rugby boys and did abit of catching up.

and now...i have to go back to camp for 2 days. before another weekend.till we meet again.

i miss you, 5.13.13.10.

a good weekend!

2009-03-29T14:07:00.003+08:00

this is currently the top 2 most heard song on my mp3. for the past week i was solely into super soft love-ful songs and hard rock love-less song. and such moods come back to back. and 3rd on the list is jamie cullum's mind trick. blues baby, blues... even i cant understand how i choose my music.

and how the fuck did they manage to mix distorted guitar and classical pop tabla. and this song was made years back. i remember hearing this song and other song from this pakistani band aloooong time ago. its just my routine to find old songs. memories! and some people get a shock when they hear such songs in my mp3. like i always say, music is universal, type and time wise. anyways im awaiting a batch of 'breakdance' tunes from a bunkmate of mine. i tested the music and it was aswesome. my kind of music. or the kind that deserve to be on my mp3. so here is yaar bina- junoon.

it happen that abg nasir send me this song. we were suppose to listen and jam it at the last wedding which we did almost to perfection. haan tu hain from the movie jannat. i hate the hero. but the song is just soothing. i tink for the past week, this is my sleeping song.-a song dat i listen to over and over till i fall asleep. usually abt 2-3 times.- and before it was tujh mein rab dikhta hai. i wasnt soo into the song at first like i always do when i have to pick up songs but im uncannily attracted to it. just strange. very strange. so anyways, haan tu hain from the movie jannat.

i spent my saturday visiting my sick nieces. stomach flu is bad bad. such a depressing sight. no point buying macdonalds. all they do is vomit and more vomit. and another friend got into an accident. coincidentally both are from the same school and same police intake. malik as we all know no longer alive and norhan just woke up from his 3-4 days coma. badly bashed in a hit and run. busted knee, torned skin and now recovering in SICU. im just glad he is alive and so sad that his pillion, a girl, died. but den again, if hes going to live a life of misery after the accident that is even worst. 2 people who are good and nice people, friend...motorbike accident leaving one fighting for his fragile life now. i got the news last sunday when i booked in. and shit i couldnt sleep dat nite.

anyways, i 'buih-ed' street soccer to watch awang belange. a production of MI's MCS group. it was a drama/musical. and the music was great. awesome infact. some are serious and some for good old laughter. wad i like about this yearly show is the hidden message behind all the crap. and also all the crap! the main characters are the same and always never fail to make me laugh.

at first i though doing it in the new school wont be so exciting. unlike in toh tuck, they had audience interaction because we all were close by. but to my suprise, they manage to interact with the audience as well. which was totally hilarious! and for $5, the audience totally ripped the show organizers off.

den i met up with the old gang for late supper and just went driving around enjoying each other's company. quality time!

and now its boot shining time! shit....

kiasu-ism

2009-03-21T16:33:00.004+08:00

i went to poly clinic this morning to remove my stitches. and i experience kiasu-ism first hand. anyways things was a breeze for me.i walk in, got my queue number and registered. den i was waiting for my turn to see the doc. since i was just removing stitches, im suppose to see the nurse in the treatment room. so there was this mother and son of chinese race. they were apparently 1-2 numbers ahead of me. so i was just seated thr waiting, watching people walk in and out. den unexpectedly, the mother and son, or just the mother got impatient.i can read her body language (arms folded) and her facial features (mumbling, frowning eyebrows, and staring around at the other nurses). as if the polyclinic owe her a great deal by making her wait.

u come to polyclinic instead of a GP and expect to be treated so specially?expect things to go fast and all? den she knock on the door and stick her head in and said something. den a nurse came out and talk to her and take a look at her ticket. den 1-2 mins later their number was called up. tsk3...i shake my head. probably the doc got pissed of something. and 5 mins later they left the room.

i feel that if u want proper services, u shud be patient and be polite. when my number came up, i walk in and greeted the nurse with a smile. from her expression, i knew she was surprised because i gave a funny face when i said good morning. and that led to a good experience while removing the stitches. i told her im not used to pain and ask her to be gentle and do it slowly. when i finish saying that, she was also done. and i swear i tot she was kidding. i felt nothing until after dat. den a surg of pain which she said was normal.

so now, my right (which is ur left) eyebrow is slightly shorter from afar but longer when u see it up close. because from far u cant see the scar and the cut stole abit of eyebrow..and up close u can see the scar which somehow is an extension of my eyebrow.

so its 3 more haircuts to pop. we have a haircut every 2 weeks. and 5 more book ins to pop. and when i do pass out, im going to go get my SPECIAL hair cut. and i really dun care if i get screwed for it. i dun tink they will make me go to DB or put paper against me. im tired. and sleepy. and i got a long weekend. music practice and a wedding to work for. seriously, im wasting my life...

the best alumni game climax!

2009-03-16T09:31:00.003+08:00

as much as i dislike people who take mc and go to the medical officer for the slightest pain, im now one of them. maybe from a macro perspective. but i know myself. its for the passion of the game. and its not like im took mc to sit at home or go somewhr to slack. im still exercising but in a fun way!

the bulk/tiring part of basic police training is almost over. swimming test, ippt and shooting. im left with law test, PSOC and drill test. of those 6 law test is the only factor that i have to study. BAM! there goes my chances of passing. im like halfway thr already to working in a police station. i even did my psychometric test, which was sa boring and irritating at the voactional assesment during medical check up. all the BS and funny drawing. its kindegarten work at a higher level.

i figured that if i intend to fulfill my wish to save the earth, i have to cut down my own CO/CO2 emmission. i just realised that while i was smoking and looking at the trees.

finally, i watched sweeney todd. its soo backdated but i haven had time to dwload or catch movies anymore for the time being. so im pretty much dependent on HBO and Starmovies. and sweeney todd is awesome. its soo brilliant to do a murder plot into a musical. and its based on a broadway musical, so i shall not doubt its repute. its a waste i couldnt watched it in the cinema.

i have become so skillfull at polishing boots. im tinking abt making it my career u know. maybe now i polish boots and when im having my mid-life crisis, i'll make a career switch to teaching how to polish boot. killing 2 bird with one stone. i still get a career at something stupid as well as fulfilling my ambitions to teach. haaaaaa! but the money part?hmmmm

it was damn fun how i got my MC ytd. me and diq went to alexandra hospital since its less busy there. he went first and didnt get his mc. maybe not enuff indian blood to lie convincingly. den i went in and start my sob story. this is my story.

(knn ccb its copyrighted, so ask my permission if u intend to distribute/reuse for personal benefits or make it into a hindi movie!)

i had bad cough and alot of phlegm. i had it since thursday morning in camp. i went to the MO but the medication was effective only for awhile. when i book out the fever coughing and flu came back again. i cough out some bloody phlegm on thursday nite but i drank alot of warm water and its just the normal phlegm again. sunday morning i had fever but since im booking in, i just took panadol and the fever went away but den early in the evening, the fever came back again. so i called my officer and told her im coming to the hospital.

den the doctor did some checks, i told him i smoke and he start knocking on my back and checking my heartbeat and some other stuff and he said my lungs are clear. im just having normal fever.

den i ask if i can get an MC for sunday as im suppose to book in and if possible for today also.

he answered, that shouldnt be a problem.

: D and ofcourse being a soon-to-be courteous police officer, i replied, thank you doc! u enjoy the rest of your working hours.

and after dat, we just walking back to the car. fuck the medication. now we need to go to NUH for sadiq 2nd MC test. tsk2...amatuer ar...haaaa!

all for the sake of an oval ball. but hell, now i know wad to do. coming sunday? anybody wanna hang out at alexandra hospital with me?

finally...

2009-02-28T10:13:00.002+08:00

its been a month. so easy to keep track of the last time i posted. everything has been ok so far. my weight lost graph have slowed down. and i've still yet to pass my ippt. and im going crazy doing push up and all sort of upper body exercise to get a atleast 10 reps.

but the best part, i can notice my body shrinking! belly is kind of not visible. arms getting defined. and i feel super healthy. hell, i feel super lazy to blog. maybe because every time i book out, i'll book out with flu and bad coughing.

somehow, i cant change my body alarm clock easily. i keep waking up at 430am everyday. INCLUDING weekend. baaaadd! very baddd!

weekly summary begins

2009-02-08T09:33:00.002+08:00

its been a undesirable week in camp. so much trouble and problems and always the bloody uncertainty of confinement which will always destroy my plans for the weekends. and soon i'd might be working for the whole week. yes! working 7 days a week if the weekly schedule hits it right. den im dead.

they had an alumni game, which i was soo looking forward to. its on a friday afternoon. but not afternoon enough for me to make it. i tried to find excuses on thursday, trying my luck if i can get a gatepass or a half day leave but to no avail.in the end i just met up with saha sadiq rama and mai and continue with their supposedly plan to hang out with me. i haven met any of them ever since i got enlisted. thats like a month ago. finally, i went to macdonalds, had a burger and coke after one month.

and then they followed me home..to my surprise 21st birthday party. i was really surprise because i really wasnt expecting anything. it was my 21st and i want it perfect. and it happend just like how i wanted it to be. simple, friends and family. my sisters took out the literal meaning. how often can i get my friends to come together. everybody is busy with work and their own family. and the only free time i have is my weekends which almost half is used up by music. and the other best part, all my siblings are around. that i all i ask for and man utd to win the league this season.

and i was truly surprise. even if my face dun look like it. i was just blurred. when i saw salleh and ramdan. its been soo long since i saw them all. and for my 22nd birthday, i'll have condom balloons. thks to salleh and nani for the stock. haha!

ippt! ippt! i cant do pull ups. but then, i've set weekly targets. weak spots are pull ups and standing broad jumps. with an instructor ready to help, it will be a breeze with alot of effort. but then again, im straight up, all out and fearless. 11km is now not impossible.

memoirs

2009-01-27T12:01:00.005+08:00

a short trip to malacca. and a day at the beach. in such a short span of time, i found things to do that helps to keep my mind of things. and now im back. going back in tonite. kinda mixed feelings. now im feeling lazy to go back to the same routine. 5am mornings, exercise, study, swimming, dojo. but only for the next 3 days den comes another weekend. and to make matters worst, i will only pass out 2 months after the 'shud be' date.

the only good thing is, it will be a grand pass out. because of the OCTs and some contigent in brunei. and the boring part is, i'll be in police uniform, while they will be in smart one. stealing the show. i've yet to complete my log book, shine my boots, iron my uni and memorise the pledge. besides, there is always inspection every first day of the week.

its my mom's birthday tomorrow. and i will be in camp. it sucks being the property of the government. i miss my pink ic. and it will be another 365 days plus another 330 days or so before i get it back. i feel like im in prison. haha. i miss my family. i miss my nieces, my friends. but there is a need to run! to disappear. start afresh.

that is what u get when u mess with things that arent meant to be or suppose to be. heh. im looking forward to weddings. lots of weddings. i miss music, i miss being free.

i will never forget that nite when u sang me this song over the phone....its just beautiful.

fresh start...

2009-01-26T02:24:00.001+08:00

life is a gamble. you win some, you lose some.

things will never be the same.its hard to convince myself. i guess its karma. i must have done something to deserve it.

BUT...

"it ain't about how hard you hit.it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.it's about how much you can take and STILL keep moving forward.thats how winning is done!" - Rocky Balboa.

i will pick myself up. and keep going forward. i have goals to achieve.

anyways, this 2 videos show how aamir khan got his body his new hindi movie. for a 40+ year old guy to do 24 pull ups in less den a year, i tink its an awesome feat. if he can do it, so do i. discipline!

i just realised that it is a norm for trainees serving NS to run 5km almost everyday. the first run of something new is always tiring. but the feeling of satisfaction after the completion makes u carve for more. now i look forward to physical training. for that moment when u feel 'high' after accomplishing something. and im having my first of 4 ippt on my birthday. pass, silver gold? will it be a great present? hmmmm...ofcourse im aiming for the highest. but a pass will be enough for now. and i cant remember when was the last time i passed something.

when i run, i tend to challenge myself, that i can do better than him, or better den him and so on.i keep a mental record of whom i finish after, only to chase that guy when we run again. my arms dun shiver when im left in push up position. buddha claps is like candy for me. burpees, sit ups, alternate leg shuffles and many other forms of punishment is now convincingly beneficial. the only thing i hate is when i have to do punishment in anything other den PT kit. imagine u put that sleek and cripsy uniform on, smelling all nice and fresh. then when u assembly to march off to class, they tell u, 'to ur left palms down'. under the hot sun, u begin to sweat, the shiny boots began to crack. all the effort to make it look shiny like glass goes down the drain. den ur mood gets spoilt because of the harsh words used. and police uniform isnt comfortable even before u sweat in it.

atleast in PT kit, u know ur going to get trashed. u know ur gonna bathe in ur sweat.NS is so unpredictable. thats why im enjoying it! now i cant wait to book in. heh.

im gonna start the oat regime.together with maybe less rice first. its a lot of work, but seeing is believing. u dun get abs thru working out. its a combination of dieting and exercise. i want to be fit and strong and most importantly feel good. what other time to do it den now.

abs by my 21st bdae? impossible! haha.

Sedi...YA!

2009-01-17T09:25:00.003+08:00

at first i was damn excited about it. but then when the enlistment date gets nearer, i started feeling fear and laziness. i was so couldnt be bothered, i turn up with just clothes and other basic necessities. i didnt even read the booklet they send on wad admin stuff i need to bring.

first 3 days was horrible.it seems like they were unreasonable,always punishing and out to get you all the time. by the fourth day, my FI stashed away his ranking and talk to us as a friend. what he said wad truly enriching and changed my perception of NS. it is what you want it to be. it is a punishment if u want it to be. it is a form of traing which is good for you, if u want it to be. there was also alot of welfare for us.we had no training for that day.and the remaining confinement days was awesome.

march, jog, run, jump, pumping an all other sort of exercise stuff.it was damn awesome. and because of MC, i missed the defence tactics class and they had a little touch rugby tournament which i also missed.for now, my squad mates form up very well. we are like a happy go lucky bunch of people. afew bloody jokers in my squad makes our squad famous amongs the instructors for entertainment or to pass by time by giving 'PT'. haha.

after being off for a long time, now i realise the people who would miss me and truly care for my well being. there are plenty of friends. but gems are rare to find. its a short weekend for me. got a wedding dinner to work at and a music practice to go to. den it off to chalet for another week!

ouch!

2009-01-15T19:12:00.002+08:00

finally!

2009-01-05T16:43:00.004+08:00

just in case i die doing pull ups or something humiliating, i would like share my will with you all. my beloved possessions. my boots will go to saha and rama. share em. just dun score the amount of tries i did with them. score more. put some value in it.haha

my mp3 and headphones, i will give to my brothers, whoever wants it can have it. its a real cool gadget. take care of it. and my beloved com, i shall leave it for my family. it anything goes wrong, get the next computer genius to fix it.

and pass my music instruments to someone who really wants to learn to play music. it will mean alot to me. heh. i tink thats about it.

anyways, im just not sure if im ready. i was bloody hell pumped up to go about a month ago. but now, its seems like boring. maybe i need to get the momentum going. once i start, i may feel like i want to keep it going. i want hard washboard abs. but then, its kinda far-fetched. but ill try. thats wad matters most.

i will miss everything. my friend, my family, music rugby, fico and school.it is so fun to see people getting prepared for school. doing homework. im starting to miss it already. life is so different nowadays. i dunno if and why im changing. my preferences, my mood, my outlook. its all like not me.

its so sad to celebrate my 21st in camp. but then again, like i told my friend, i dun want a party. i want to have fun. like go east coast for a picnic fun, or go pulau ubin to cycle fun. or like i book fico for 4 hours and have my 21st birthday there. wont that be fun? can play touch rugby and stuff and like hold a tournament.while i went for cake hunting with a little girl just now, i came across this idea of my 21st birthday cake. i tot of like having king of spade and ace of spade designs on my cake. blackjack! or 21!. how cool is that right?!

lets put big dreams aside. as you all may have known by now, i failed my TP test. circuit 8 pts. den go out for test route, first junction beat red light. immediate failure and followed by another 36 points. demoralising.maybe it was a blessing in disguise. nobody knows. and next test god knows when.

saha and rama thanks for keeping me occupied when im jobless.sadiq,salleh,nani,wan,jack,feeraz and all, thks for being there when i need you people most.nasser and justin, i wont be miss both you. too bad! see you tomorrow. and to azi for occupying my boring nights with laughter.special thanks to my maka boys. be hip! i'll see u all when i get out definitely. the mi boys for occupying my mornings with trainings.

last but not least. my family. mom dad, nieces, sisters. my bolster my bed. my tv, my shows. haiya. so many things. i love my life. every aspect of it.

till the next time i meet u guys, adios amigos! signing off as a boy one last time!

Let's start off with a bang!

2009-01-03T17:55:00.008+08:00

its the new year. 2009. one more year to Singapore's goal 2010. making it to the world cup. and supposedly our new stadium should be 1/3 done. yet, we will pe playing AFC matches there still i tink. nvm.

anyways, driving cocking up bad. im just so afraid that i might not pass. lesson is getting boring because i can drive smoothly. circuit is a breeze and my U-turns, and test routes all familiarised and wadever all la, its all good. but its because i know im practicing.besides, i have soo many instructors, it truly a good idea to like take bits and pieces of their advices and u put all the good things together. its soo much easier to learn.

but the actual test itself is very intimidating. i cant decide to be nice and friendly to the tester, or be a stone and do wad i've been told to do. and the worst thing is i will only get a feel of my actual test car on the test day itself. dat is not really a good idea. so i just pray hard that i get to do it once and do it well. because i haven got time to do it a second time. it will take ages when im in NS. besides, im planning to take my bike license as well while doing time.

new year celebs was awesome. and indeed i drank abit too much. eventho when i was high already, i kept telling myself to stop, but i was afraid the 'high' feeling will dissappear. hence i drown more and more shots. den bam! i felt sick. and bloody hell, they had to play games when im high. the reason people cant drink and drive is because their reaction time slows down. same goes for playing games. u cant drink and play games. people will cheat u, and u will be stupid enuff to agree. haha!

all bummed out. actually, one of them is sleepy. as usual. and the other two, drunk. haha.i dunno why, but i like the next picture. and saha, if u notice, sanjay look like you. or you look like sanjay. not much difference also. haha. from left to right : ivan, justin, sanjay, salleh, syarif and me. not in picture, jack, wan and the girls. and that girl in the background isnt chinese nor ang moh or malay. shes indian. nemo something devi is her name. and nash is her game! hahaha! and i was asleep in the pic, i wasnt peeping or anything.

apparently, the above 2 pictures are pictures in the same situation. same setting. just different models. i was told, that i was in the 2nd picture. as u can see, pretty much u cant see anything. they must have switch off flash. bastard sia. making fun of skin colour all. racist. tsk2...anyways, there was alot of foreign workers. i have no idea since when sentosa became their hotspot. wad happen to serangoon road and mustafa centre? but they were pretty much a happy bunch of people just getting into the groove of 2009. just pray hard that most of you all dun get deported back due to recession.

and i lost alot of money. i have no idea why, i was winning in the beginning but when we switch games, my luck ran out. it was fucking irritating. but den, thats gambling.haha.

still counting down. 3 more days to booking in. and 2 more days to pray hard.

boxing day tsunami commemoration

2008-12-26T10:13:00.003+08:00

people would remember the few thousands that died in the September 11 attacks, 7 years ago. and they held a commemoration for those who died.

well, if any of you remember, today is the anniversary of the deadly earthquake and tsunami which hit india, thailand, sri lanka, indonesia and many other countries. and the death toll was JUST afew HUNDRED thousand. maybe not white enough to be remembered or there JUST wasnt enough death to be remembered.besides, this just happened 4 years ago.

to all the lost souls of the boxing day tsunami, i remember you. may ur soul rest in peace.

moving on, man utd Vs. stoke tonite 825pm.

and this sunday @ the esplanade outdoor theatre, Bushmen Live! from 7pm to 930pm.free entrance. for the love of bob marley and reggae, make the effort to come down. haha!

500th posting!

2008-12-25T14:10:00.007+08:00

blast from the past! i was hit with the win32.blaster worm a.k.a lovescan. hold on to ur horses! i defeated this worm in like 15mins like 4-5 years ago. its just that i happen to switch off my antiviruses just for the fun of it. go ahead, try this at home. especially for those people who uses alot of credit card transaction online. i can never use internet banking. because im aware of the trojans on my computer.i cant delete them. because if i do, i wont be able to use alot of stuff on my computer. its like a piracy paradise. the only legal thing i have on my computer is my creative zen software.haha!

anyways, recently with the surge in unwanted comments on friendster, i was particularly amazed at the clever disguise made by the hacker. it sure did fooled alot of people. so here is how it works. first, you see the youtube video...

then, you click on it and see the following page...

very harmless page. this is the drawback of friendster. they always have login problem. and because of that, people just log in and continue again. so often that a hacker had identify it and use it as a loophole. now dats really smart. look at the website again and look real close at the web address! hah! its NOT a friendster website. its a website that looks like it.

so imagine the thousands of people who had just blindly typed in their username and password and just 'logged in'. the hacker has a database of ur confidential information. if ur like me who dont use the same password for everything, den lucky you. but if ur those forgetful ones, i wonder what will the hacker do with such information. he can sell ur email address, thats why u have alot of junk mail in ur email inbox. he can use ur email to create a hoax, and u will get into trouble. basically, just becareful when ur online.

cyberspace is becoming as dangerous as real world.i managed to spot the web address because i dun have log in problem for friendster! haha!

anyways, tandoori chickened with RC people monday. and with seafooded and sheesha-ed MI friends on tuesday. stayed at home and slept thru my driving on wednesday and now sitting back watching shanghai noon on thursday. and im dead rushing for time. it sucks to go NS now. i was damn excited at first, but now i just want to extend the extended time. and tomorrow is friday. that is 16 days left. half a month to go. im going to miss my hairdo, miss my 'macho mama' facial hair. im gg to miss my beer belly. and have to start getting use to having 6-8 pecs. haiz...chey chey!

____________________

It was 3 am in the morning. He got nowhere to go. It was raining heavily and the thunder just keeps him awake. The bright lights was making his head spin. He was sleepy, he was tired, he was cold and hungry. He lay down on the cold hard floor. All he had was a jacket to shield him from the icy gusty winds. He closed his eyes. He got irritated because the darkness is still too bright.He got up, lit a cigarette and took a deep breath. To add on the that, the spat of gangfights in the middle of the night wasn't helping him to relax.

God knows what will happen when he goes to sleep. He slumped to the floor and wiggled to the most comfortable position. The streets were empty, the alleys were darks and the roads were brought to life by a small bike or car whizzing once in a while. He cursed his luck and wonder what had he done to derserve such a karma. But then his mind slowly drifted and he fell into a dream. Subconsiously he was thinking about his future and what is he doing to achieve it. First it was nice, then it became funny and then weird. He was jolted awake by a very loud thunder.He look at his watch, an hour gone. He almost couldnt move his legs, its definitely too cold. He knew that not wearing jeans would be a bane. The headache was gone now but he was slowly becoming wide awake. Time is ticking too slowly.

The thoughts came to him. The difficulties and worries of people who don't have homes. Or nice comfortable beds or just a matress to sleep on at night. Just like in the movies, but they have to do it nght after night. He only had to do it tonight. For one miserable night. That was enough for him to realise how lucky he was and how much he had taken somethings in his life for granted. Suddenly, he snapped out of it! He got reminded about the events leading to this moment. He felt anger and then rage. He filled himself with ego and got up. Not willing to dwell in those precious emotional moments, he put on this hoody, lit a cigarette and walk into the rain. Slowly he disappeared into the darkness of the night.

short summary

2008-12-23T10:13:00.003+08:00

basically, life's at a much slower pace now. and its much better. ever since school's out. i've been practicing to sleep atleast past 9am on MORNING-FREE days. it was hard at first because its noisy and its very bright in my room and hall. but slowly, im getting the hang of it now. and its awesome! even now my eyes feels droopy. but FACT is fact, it is known that more than 9 hours of sleep can cause heart condition. ridiculous?! but its true. too little and also too much is not good for health.

and then there was the rugby game last week. i was suppose to come down and watch MI play greenridge, but then sloooowly i end up becoming the referee. and den slooooowly i end up playing the game. its just irresistible. definitely i wasnt prepared for the game. i was from the gym. i had a non-rugby t-shirt and non-rugby shorts on. no boots. didnt even warm up except for running around as ref. but they were literally dying one by one. coach had to borrow players. and i dun like that. anyways, i felt like a hero playing against 14-15 year old kids.which is not really a good thing. i tried my best to scare the fuck out of them. really hit hard, hold on to the ball, speared! into rucks. give them a tough fight because seriously, the MI boys are playing like a bunch of girls.

they cant control their temper, they cant focus because they are mocked at, and half of them are not sure wad to do. total massacre. and ofcourse, i had to score a solo try. if not, it would show that my skills are low 14-15 year old level. not to show off but just to realised that all those trainings and skills have gotten into my head. like atleast im somewhere and not nowhere.

'testimonial' game was kinda fun. just touch and kick the ball around abit. enjoy the sun, sweat and fellow friends. i heard the current boys are planning a testimonial game. lets just see how things unfold.

i've been playing music for almost 9 years. last sunday, i was playing at a wedding and then i did things they didnt expect. like play solo which usually they expected me to skip. well, i practiced and i did. i feels good to see people being awed and clap for you. some people told me that, that day i was totally on form and all. maybe because whenever i play for their band, its not my usual set of percussion. but this time round, i played my own set of percussion and received surprising feedbacks. the funny thing was the vocalist actually messaged me after the wedding. she said and i qoute 'u played very well.really, i just realised'. it was a compliment but i replied back, wth?! so ur tot i wasnt good all this while!?. den wadever that happened next was just hilarious and extremely cute.

and then dat i headed for the national stadium to watch vietnam 'jack-ass' the lion's arse. seriously, vietnam's short passes seems to be more deadlier as compared to singapore's long balls. agu cashmir is big but slow. he can win the ball in the air, but cant beat the defenders to it when the ball hits the ground. and the other striker was pretty much silent. the first half was good for singapore. vietnam tried to gain control of the ball when they are defending which is a mistake. by 2nd half, all long balls and simply kick back upfield. perfect for counter-attacks. which indeed lead the vietnam's winning goal. it is unbelievable to see 2-3 defenders man-marking one guy with the ball and leaving the other attackers unmark.its ridiculous. mid-field was good. i tink singapore gain alot of ball possession because our fellow mid-fielders really tackled hard. anyways, this year would likely go to Thailand. SawaDEE-kap!!

here comes The Boom

im tired of retrieval expert. i feel like a need a change. reinvent.just last month ppl come up to me and said i look like a 25 year old guy. dats not to bad. and now with this long hair thingy and this 'macho-mama' moustache and beard im sporting, my friends call me daddy. not 'sugar daddy' daddy but guy with children daddy. well, wth! it just temporary. its been a long time since i get to not shave.

maybe i'll revive retrieval expert some other time. but now, i feel like the Boom.

so...here comes The Boom!

time's up

2008-12-20T17:31:00.001+08:00

before i compromise my own safety, i've decided to remove my last 2 post.
its best if i move it elsewhere.
blogging is now no longer a safe place for me to scribble my thoughts.

how sad.

balls balls..

2008-12-14T22:27:00.004+08:00

eventho we won, i didnt feel satisfied by the effort i put in. it seems like i was just running around and watching the game. they even told me i was very quiet in the game. i hav no idea why. maybe its cause sam is shifting around our position to much. or maybe im not dat versatile as i had though i am. or maybe i was just intimidated by the size of our opponents that i let it get into my head and in short, i was scared. maybe the only point i can get off from that match is that i was tired. still had some stamina to last the entire game. its just so sad i dun get to finish the season.

and it was soo nice of nani,syahidah and justin to wait for me before eating at the wedding. i feel like a star and an idiot as well. its just unusual for me to be invited at weddings. im always there to DO something and its very unlikely i'd be sitting around enjoying the music or/and food. well there was plenty of chics around but i was told that i came too late. busy man ar. but i went from sweating muddy rugger to a guy smelling nice and dressed up nicely for a wedding. for that i give myself a pat on the back. just afew more steps before i can jump into a telephone booth and change like superman do! hah!

it seems like im stepping to fico for soccer more often den im stepping to a typical street soccer court. just my luck i guess. but is just truly fun to play with ur comrades. all the laughter and fun and moments of triumph. and just to sweat it out. and when u get a group of boys together, all hell break loose! we made a innocent action pack movie into an erotic senseless movie. ofcourse, with our own dialogues. and ika, that is not childlish, its call bonding. and thats how we MAKA boys do it! ahaha!

and now i feel like going swimming den sit down and chill at a barbaque....and 500th post is approaching fast! time for a small milestone celebrations.

SPARTAA

2008-12-13T11:12:00.003+08:00

things are turning around again. i feel like as if im having a good week followed by a bad week and the cycle goes on over and over. nonetheless, the common thing between the weeks is, there is too much to do at one time and literally nothing to do at the next moment. taxing, very taxing indeed.

i left for KL last week. the sudden trip which lasted 4 days. and i missed soo many things. thursday training...and i know i had something to do on friday. saturday morning was suppose to be reserved for arwah malik. we all planned to visit his grave but i didnt turn up. den i miss the matched against bucks which SRC lost badly.

and this week, things went well. i had time for training, swimming, gym, visit my nieces, spent time with MI rugby boys, watched plenty of movies and just relax.even had time to play at fico twice in a week. and im starting today against bucks. its a good thing compared to the fact that i was such a blur cock during training. truly felt like an idiot. dats what i get for inconsistent training attendance. i just realised school was soo much more slack. worklife is nothing like i've imagined. especially in a place like singapore where there is always highly skilled workers to replace somebody.

u dun deserve it, u dun get it. amazingly yesterday, i was able to run around create chances while playing soccer. unlike usually where im always strutting my goalkeeping skill -when im on form-.i persisted in pushing for glory! haha. and justin had to stole the show. bloody soccer boy.

anyways..its time. SRC Vs. Bucks. 2pm @ yio chu kang stadium.

leonidas shouted, 'Nash! What is you profession?'
and i replied, 'AYOO!"

Corrupt Cop Wannabe

2008-12-10T09:04:00.003+08:00

Not when its shiny, not when its out of the box but when its tried, tested and proven its ability. Beauty at its best.

back to the old days. you want some?!

take whiff, dun be shy! haha!

the world is a ball on the ground being kick around

2008-12-09T10:41:00.003+08:00

i was 6 years old when i saw this.i remember scream and cry because i wanted to go to the match wearing my red white stripe 'Singapore-die-hard-fans' t-shirt.but i was denied and told to watch at home. anyways you can see this kind of goals when u play FIFA. but such in local football? its hard to say that history will repeat itself. yes, we might win every year. but we want beautiful football.This is it. the best yet, so far. Standing ovation for fandi, malik awab and abbas saad.

just listen to the crowd. Fans are screaming at the top of their lungs even before the goal was scored. i rest my case. Hats off! Indian magic!

guess whose back?!

2008-12-07T23:11:00.002+08:00

which ID10T (idtenT error) would buy singapore cigarettes and smoke 'em in malaysia and buy malaysia cigarette and smoke 'em in singapore?

well ur reading that idiot's blog. be happy about it. there is just 3 thing i hate about going off for a short hols. the need to unpack, the need to re-adjust my schedule and slip in back to my normal life.

i just cant wait to serve NS. goals, goALS, GOALS!

no mood.

2008-12-03T09:40:00.003+08:00

its been a few days, and i still have flashbacks. and its abit depressing. and this would just push me further into the abyss of workaholism. well, atleast its something beneficial.

i was standing in the MRT yesterday evening. it was jam packed. and as usual i was standing against the glass panel beside the door. the door opens, people rush in and somehow chink dude happen to stand infront of me with his back facing me. it was too close. i understood that the train was pack so nvm. but the train moved and he leaned back. we made "wrong" contact. and he fucking turn and smiled. KNN CB!!! nangbo ti nag! tibo nang ti! klakani nabuCB bastard!

i swear the blood in my veins were beyond the boiling point of rubidium.i feel so sick la. bloody idiot dat guy. spoilt my mood the whole evening.

someone ask me why i dun dress nicely when i go to work or rugby or something that i do regularly. well its quite simple really, its something i do regularly, so i would put on a regular dress code. its not something formal or something auspicious. unless i go out with someone special, meeting a group of frens for sheesha den i would dress nciely. beside, when i go to work and rugby, i'll still be sweating by the time i reach home. no point dressing all so nicely.

For all those times, Mr Malikidudekz

2008-11-30T17:53:00.005+08:00

He was a good man. Fulfilling dreams of his parents. His dad said to me, he loves him very much. so much that he bought him a bike to please him. His dad said simple words that fully pierced my heart.

'Love your parents. Love your friends. Take care of yourself so that you dont hurt the others around you. Take his leaving as a lesson for all of you youngsters. That life is precious. Go out and work in the day, come home, pray and sleep at night. Maybe god loves him more than us. So he has to go. I look at his friends and i believe him when he said he mix around with good company.'

with that he ended with a smile and talk to his relatives. u can see pain in his eyes. as much as i was holding back my tears, i can see its even more painful for him. moments later, he wasnt wailing, but the sight of a father tearing at the recollection of his youngest son's passing is more than enought for me to switch myself off because i cant stand sadness. i've seen many deaths before, this suddenly made me realise that death can really be devastating. it really shows who really loves you enough to spare some thoughts for you.

i admit i lost contact with him. i didnt bother much to talk or catch things up. i dont blame him, i blame myself because hes gone now. now i can never get to see his smile again, hear his laughter or listen to his lame jokes which i would always do willingly in secondary school. the times when we play soccer together, or mock each other's CCA. or that one year he spent in the same class with me, exchanging our thoughts and finding of the opposite gender. im daring enought to admit that secondary school life wad the best time of my life. and im just glad that he was a part of it. thus he will always be remembered by me. his nicknames, the way he catches balls in the soccer field. its just so sad i didnt get to meet him in his uniform. by the time i'm in police, i'd be able to meet him as he has already P.O.P-ed. thats not going to happen now. and i'll just have to live on with memories.

its during this times that i start to wonder what happens to my friend after his passing. what will happen me to after my passing. he has shown us that life can end abruptly, anywhere and anytime despite one's best efforts to keep living. maybe his death affected me so much because we are of the same generation. hes my first friend to lose his life to his beloved toy. and maybe because i know him personally enough to cause me that much pain to open my eyes.

i admit, as time goes by this phase will die off. the emotions will dissappear. everybody will move on. but the reason i had to pen this is because i want to remember the emotions im feeling right now when i reread my posts. losing a thousand innocent lives isnt as damaging as losing a single friend. maybe hes passing could be a life changing moment for those who knows him, or even those who dont.

i'll be going for his funeral tomorrow morning. hopefully to do my part to as a form of punishment for not remembering him. and its the least that i could do. i love you, Abdul Malik, and definitely i'll miss you. Semoga tuhan mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohmu, wahai kawanku, amin.

Abdul Malik

25/11/88-30/11/08
A good soccer player, a good student,
a good friend.

cease fire

2008-11-30T10:33:00.002+08:00

hav i lost the will and skills to enjoy?i always know ways to crack myself up.especially when i have got nothing to worry about. im the life of party when im so in the mood. but wads bothering me. bothering me enough to make me say no. make me wanna work all day, tire myself out and just go home and sleep.

its like my frens all hyped up and im like zombie, just following them around.Before the As, it was hardcore planning.now i feel like all i want is peace, serenity,quality time.

i want to have fun. MY FUN. and believe it or not, at 20! my definition of fun is changing. fuck..

moments..

2008-11-27T22:34:00.005+08:00

do pretty girls fart?

yes they do. a test was set up by the mythbusters team and pretty girls do fart! now who is disgusting?! haha!

i need a new skin. something that is simple. something that shows my regular moods. and definitely something that can allow me to mix both bright and dull coloured fonts.

the rise of the lame-ass movie...
i've been keeping watch of the movies shown on cable. during low viewership hours, they broadcast fucking lame ass movies. and these movies comes in 2 category. the 'aeroplane' scenario and the 'deep forest' scenario. unlike high budget films like 'Wrong Turn' series and 'The Hill Have Eyes' series, the main bulk of those movies are low budget films. and they practically have the same storyline. lets say, somebody transported genetically modified spiders which escapes during mid-flight. these spiders terrorizes the passanggers and maybe killing all the pilots. and somehow they have a spider expert onboard which will fall in love with the air marshall who always handsome and knows wad to do. and either of them or a fellow aircrew will have to land the plane.

the only variable in the movie would be the kind of animal that is being transported. and as usual they are either genetically modified against the law or they have mutated through exposure to radiation or some other shit biohazard. and afew 'suppose-to-be' interesting twist to keep the viewers (hell no! its not me) in suspense.

please la, i know the ending even before they finish casting the initial credits of the movie. to prove my point, there have been movies on spiders,snakes, insects and even zombies and now porcupines. no kidding man.

another sickly act that i have notice in such movies is its always a happy ending.NO MATTER WHAT!! want to know why?! simple. happy ending with the bad guys caught will keep the world at pease, thus there isnt a need for a sequel which has a high possibility of having the same story line as the prequel and/or maybe now its due to human mistake by putting those deadly animal onboard the aircraft.

LAME! the strike should not have ended. reality tv is becoming much more interesting. but not to worry, the likes of spielberg and lucas as well as the endless stupid directors with no idea but to copy off a good storybook but with reputable movie directing skills still has a fighting chance for people to really catch a movie at the cinemas regularly. so i guess, the world continue to spin another round on its axis.

here is a rather peculiar fact. u cant drown cockroaches. ok, maybe not cant, more like most likely. they did a test of leaving 5 cockroaches submerged underwater for 30 mins. and almost a day later, the 'seemingly motionless' cockroaches comes crawling back to life. all bloody 5 of them. cockroaches can hold their breath underwater longer as well as survive a nuclear explosion longer den any other human being. its bloody hell proven, alright.

finally, a day officially set aside for the closure on A levels. a chalet with the library boys and gang was all i need to forgot things and move on. it was awesome, alot of swimming, good barbequed food, plenty of abs-crunching funny games to make my head goes spinning.

its been a long time since i dived into 2 meters of chlorinated water. and sure hell it was fun.

the likes of
poker
cheating
cigarettes
good food
plenty of jabs
sugar
....haha..and the man of the day, justin! thks for the moments. u will always be my half oreo brother. as proclaimed by bulat.

the deadly concoction

2008-11-26T14:48:00.002+08:00

1)deprive me of sleep.
2)make me tired and
3)let me listen to :
-breaking benjamin's 'blow me away'
-nelly's 'here comes the boom'
-fort minor's 'remember the name'

the deadly concoction- increasing my testerone levels, making me agigated easily (short- circuiting my temper), highly prone to violent behaviour with the slightest provocation.

thats why we have to rest well before playing rugby. such situation would only allow us to play the last minute of rugby for the rest of our lives.like how players get banned for biting and stuff like dat. stay calm, focus and den one will play like a gentleman.

the game against national girls wad kind of fun. i was expecting like superhuge butches but my my my....it so wasnt as much as i had expected. they are quite girly bunch. and ofcourse..one had to stand out. the pretty 2nd row by the name of sophie.i admit i purposely stacked out all the way, just waiting for her to piggy the ball. and all the while i tried to be her opposition during normal attack play. and my plan did work alright. i got to tackle her..haha.. it was like falling on a bed.

i want to open up my facebook account again. infact i did. and fuck if it was a piece of paper, i would have burn it. such a was that im such a noob at facebook. now a good thing too. god knows.

i cant understand why ppl are afraid of ghost and ghouls. i doesnt make sense to me. someone once told me that we humans are born without fear. the reason we are wad we are now is because of wad happens in our surrounding which trigger fear in us. for example, a baby sees a cup of hot water and approaches it. the next moment the mom is already screaming at the baby and pulling it away. just dat caused a psychological reaction in our mind that hot is dangerous. this is rather a good form of fear. fear for our own well being. but then comes fear for out own stupidity. the belief of ghost, all this bull of seeing things and for the people who are afraid of the dark. i dare to admit im a pussy myself. but den again, im proud to say that i have overcome such a stupid fear.

firstly, its against my beliefs. besides, i was taught that such beings are just another creation of god. and u shud fear god and not them. furthermore our inability to overcome such fears shows our weakness. thus such weakness will only lead to more fear and finally losing control of oneself mind. bear with me for a moment. bullshit i hear?

trust me, if ur afraid to live in ur own house, i really do pity you. i admit again, i used to. but den i got used to such things. i hear stories abt my house before but i can spend the nite alone in my house sleeping peacefully provided there are no mosquitos. haha!

and maybe my ability to see in the dark is playing to my advantage, but be brave. face ur fears or u shall always be fearful. and worst, fearing to fear itself is becoming and issue. yes, things in this world is getting from worst to the planet of the apes!

so before we become the slave of our own fears, we better tweak our little heart and exchange it with the mighty lion! and never live in fear ever again.

till den, fear not those who isnt around you, but those close enought to hurt you.*rugby tackle!*

2008-11-21T13:35:00.002+08:00

but enjoying life!

randomise

2008-11-20T12:46:00.002+08:00

there i was standing in the fully packed train with baby bash's cyclone blasting in my ear. and to spoil the clubbing atmosphere was this old chinese aunty standing in front of me but facing the same direction as me. and fuck it was close enough for things to happen. and hell i didnt dare to move. when i realise such a situation had arise, i just turn walk to a place where i can stand all by myself and i quickly switch to Roy Jones's Cant be touched. heh!

i dared the sun the wind and the rain just to get my com fixed.how i wish during such time im able to drive a car and it sure did burned a hole in my pocket. well u need money for good stuff.but i would a prefer a laptop because atleast i wont feel so bored at the fact that i can hav access to the cyberworld only at home. a new sata hdd, a new power supple kit. and the funny thing was i went to the computer shop, bought the stuff and like debunk my com there and den, removing wadever bullshit i dun need and soup it all up! ooooo...

i wish i had enough money to build my own supercomputer. like experiment with dual motherboard (never been done b4, only dual processor) and quad 1 gig RAM and purposely overclock it just to see its limit. with all the GeForce latest V cards and top notch creative soundblaster cards. and literally watch the computer burn. well dats just for fun. but after dat i'll want to build one for my own use. one which i will soooo sayang.

besides that, i want to get myself rollerblades. i've already started daydream and stuff. and i've made plan on when to learn to roller blade. i know its like a childhood thing, but yea, i waste my childhood doing something else. i was already planning that since i dun hav school, i'll train rollerblading like late at night. where nobody is around to see...so when im already good at it..hah! i can play during the day or just go to east coast for a roll..chey! if i can do this, den i will have something else to do other den swim when i go to beaches!

damn la...now sooo much time..soo many things to do...but just no money...all because im desperate for driving license.it will be easier as long as it doesnt drag into NS. den it will take ages..

2008-11-16T17:38:00.003+08:00

my neck hurts. i hav no idea why. for the first time today i went to sleep after i came back from work. i feel like discussion my sickest thoughts. but its best if such things are meant for my brains only! haha!

im sooo in love with this song. i dunno why. the melody and the tune give me this soothing feeling. so for now, im still hooked on it.

the funny thing i saw is this comment on youtube abt this song. the user said :
'Careful ladies,
this is one of those baby makers....
Your lips may say no,
but when this plays,everything is yes!'

haha! how cute! and i do agree with this user. i am not really a big fan of usher. i tink of all the songs he made, i only like 2 of them. 'yeah' and now this. its soo hard to please me.

anyways, i was talking to syafiq abt driving. he passed just afew days ago and he was telling me abt his test. when he was talking abt his E-brake moment, i got reminded abt how i almost crashed into a taxi. bloody bastard! as usual, i always have this problem of driving off from a junction. taxis always have been a pain in the ass, honking and being impatient. i was going straight and he was turning left. just as i got my biting point and abt to drove off, he came in from my right side and cut thru infront of me.

it was fucking scary man. i managed to brake just in time. and my instructor start yelling vulgarities at the driver.the funny thing was he said if we were driving a lorry, he would hav stopped me from jambraking. langgar aje tu taxi. and i felt better, dat kind of joke during a tensed moment helped me to relax. thank god.

and can u believe it? hair has started to grow on my recently waxed legs. definitely bloody good news for me! i miss my leg hair. it feels weird when i wear my working pants. because i sweat, the pants stick to my legs.and its soo damn uncomfortable.

i need to organise a soccer meeting. and a testimonial game. the worst part of such things is to get replies. and the sad part is to sacrifice people who cant make it on a stipulated date.

virgin game

2008-11-15T22:28:00.003+08:00

i had a terrible sleep last nite. and its not cause by the weather or my body not working properly or anithing. its caused by an ancient creaure that still exist till today! and it was damn funny man.

last nite was such a bore. i truly had nothing much to do except just slack the nite away. thks to a friend who accompanied me thru smsing i was kept from going insane. i just realised that im the kind who cant stay at home for long. i do only when i go out for long hours. but when i've been at home the previous day, i hav to go out the next day. just stepping out to get some fresh air or anithing. i dunno wad my point was but nvm...dats not impt.

finally, it was damn exciting. the hype out to the game. it was so sad that Mr D couldnt play. i know ur dissapointed. but cheer up bro.i know u would hav been a superstar on the field just now. once again, im not sucking up! haha

eventho we lost, i was quite happy. 24-17. and we had the lead, it sure felt good. to play once again. considering the fact that we or rather i had not train that much, 2 days of no cigarettes really showed alot of difference. i lasted longer that i had expected. and i hav to agree playing 2nd row isnt easy as i had anticipated.

i've played basically all forward position. but playing 2nd row has be the most disgusting. ppl shoving u while u shoving people. haha! but i tink i provided alot of help to my teammates.
thats the beauty of being versatile.when u have played different position before, i kind of get the idea wad that person wants when ur not in his shoes. for example, i used to play prop and i like to sit on the 2nd row before i engage in the scrum. i get a better engaging position when the call is given. so when i was playing 2nd row just now, i made sure i squared up my body so that the prop could sit on me.

im just glad that i received plenty 'pat on the backs' for the little2 things i do. hammering and rucking. giving alot of support. and the best part is people acknowledging them after the game.it makes me feel as if i hav accomplished wad i came there for. and i tot i almost broke my arm. but it was just hyper-extended i tink.its in pain now but nothing much to worry about.a common knocks and bruises.

i miss all of this! all of this. and the best part is there is more to come.i dunno if playing with adults just made the game slower but the game isnt like how it used to be when i was in school. but maybe for now it on my side cause im just about to start getting my fitness back.

full force kickass! how do you defeat an enemy who isnt afraid to die?

rugby relived for real!

2008-11-14T10:15:00.003+08:00

my luck is all back! everything is happening just as i planned.goood goood...everything is back on track. and god is finally smiling upon me!

playing 2nd row for the conference league. im just sooo damn excited! first game coming up this saturday against wanderers. they are called wanderers because they are mostly expats. big size people generally. but thats not the point. size doesnt intimidate me like it use to. not because i've grown bigger but more likely because im playing smarter.

more mass, or shud i say soon to be muscles, is an advantage!haha!

ouh man! i soo miss this feeling! this feeling to be a part of a team. i dun really care if we screw up the season.all i want is to play rugby regularly. before i fly off to lawful land.and that is the other problem.im gg be enlisted before the season finish. how sad.

once in the police force, i cant decide whether to play rugby or maybe try something else. u know...venture into my other interests.

now, finally i have a good enough reason to stop smoking. to get my fitness back in time so that i dun suffer or worst die in NS later. aha! its gg to be so fun visualising and psyche up again! and all that prep! ooooo...

im really excited! ccab 315pm against wanderers.this saturday!

for you...

new experience

2008-11-12T21:19:00.002+08:00

driving was terrible. i forgot everything or maybe i was just too tired and couldnt wait to go home. besides my usual peter isnt around. and they assigned me another peter. a big fat one who smells. maybe its because of dat i got a headache the moment i got in the car. just terrible! and sucky! suddenly driving is driving the fun out of driving! does that make sense?!

it seems fun at first. my first leg waxing. haha! yup. i was done with work, i had nothing to do. and they did a leg wax on me. i've had my legs hair pulled before and all. but it wasnt as painful as this. val said its coz my leg hair are(were) long and curly. bloody hell.

they started out from the back. and it was painful but not 'me- screaming' kind of painful. its like they strip a different spot everytime and every new spot shocked me! i had to flex my legs to prevent them from jerking and luckily kicking their faces.

but by the time they start on the front, it wasnt so bad. i could already withstand the pain and watch them rip my pityful leg hair to shreds.so sad. but it was truly an enriching experience.now i feel like doing it again. den after they are done, the oil and lotion really did damage-control. it was truly soothing.

when i put my pants back on, it felt like i got a new pair of legs. it was very very uncomfortable! my skin felt raw.and i can feel my jeans rubbing against it. it feels so different. and i tot my legs felt lighter. i dunno...maybe i was holding on to 2-3 kilos of leg hair!? haha! i can see all my old scars and wounds. and i didnt know my skin was smooth like dat. but the scars kind of spoilt it all.

besides, having no leg hair dun really look good on me. and i still hav got my hair on my hands. so its kinda creepy. so till i hav my leg hair back, u wont see me in three-quater pants or shorts anytime soon or would you?! heh!

batam!

2008-11-10T09:17:00.031+08:00

the trip to batam was truly family bonding.we get to go shopping, eat and eat and spend the nite telling stories and everything la. and the best part was with my dad around all the time. i wouldnt have second thoughts abt spending time with my family again. let the pics do the talkings...

its her all time favourite pose.

Before!...After!...

the guys.

that is me swimming and just about to pinch her butt!

no need for introduction.

big arent i? not really if u see me inperson.

me with a man utd born and bred fan.

just like home! breakfast, lunch and dinner on the floor!

ghetto kid.

charlie has got only three...i got all five!

they said i look gay.

i spent an overall 15 hours just swimming with them for that 3 days. 15 hourS!!

ayam penyet!

shah and lara dutta!

this restaurant was awesome!

awesome!

rugby again!

2008-11-09T22:30:00.003+08:00

i stood there, all suit and boot up-ed. while he made changes! i stood infront of him, the only one there, hoping to be noticed, given a chance. but he looked everywhere else except me. but i know if i dun open my mouth, no shit is gg to happen! 'sam, i want to play!'. he hesitated, but decided to give me a try.

like i said, when u let a starving tiger loose, he will even eat your bones. i forgot how unfit i was, i forgot how sleepy i was, i forgot how tired i saw. all i could tink of is the get the ball and hit the shit out of everybody. suddenly all the rules, tricks and smart plays flooded my mind.just hours before, i thought i had forgotten to play rugby. i swear i was playing like how i first started. as a prop, just more experience and armed with a better knowlegde of the game. it was useful indeed.

initially i tot i would screw up. give stupid passes, ruck like a wuss and worst, miss tackle.but instead i played better den my expectations. all i wanted was to just play, get hit, have fun. let sweat appear on me, smear grass on my face and attain few bruises and bangs. the exact things im dying to feel once again. but den again, i tink i did made an impression. just enough to get notice and hopefully will lead to more chances.seasons starting soon. and if i get to play just a game, i'll be very happy indeed.

atleast now i hav a reason to get fit.a reason to go out and run, to hit the gym. something to look forward to! i just realised rugby just doesnt stop after MI.i cant wait, to form a team again. i miss playing rugby. and for a starving tiger, a meal is not enough for a lifetime! hah!

and saha, im not sucking up. ur first div standard. wasted if they bench you. if they do bench you...come play with me! if i cant go up...u come down! ahahaha!

unluckiest day

2008-10-30T08:18:00.002+08:00

my luck is running out.
i dunno wad i did or didnt do to disturb my karma.
something changed.
and im in deep trouble.

holiday!

2008-10-24T16:42:00.003+08:00

Let me take you far away
You'd like a holiday
Let me take you far away
You'd like a holiday

Exchange the cold days for the sun
A good time and fun
Let me take you far away
You'd like a holiday

Let me take you far away
You'd like a holiday
Let me take you far away
You'd like a holiday

Exchange your troubles for some love
Wherever you are
Let me take you far away
You'd like a holiday

Longing for the sun you will come
To the island without name
Longing for the sun be welcome
On the island many miles away from home
Be welcome on the island without name
Longing for the sun you will come
To the island many miles away from home
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when u add a dash of latin spice to cold hard rock, you get to go to heaven with your body groovin'

long live the Scorpions for providing the world with good music. holiday by the scorpions, one of my favourite version which coincide with my mood!

im longing for the sun!! gg to the island without name, many miles away from home. A good time and fun! on holiday!

2008-10-22T22:00:00.002+08:00

The end of AIDS!
SINGAPORE : Researchers at the National University of Singapore may have found a potential cure for viral diseases like SARS and HIV.
They have created an antibody that can ’capture’ large molecules such as viruses, and neutralise them before infection takes place.
Viral diseases like SARS, HIV and even the common flu have long defied attempts of a cure, due to frequent virus mutations. And that is why, for instance, people have to take flu vaccines every season.
Moreover, the rate of viral mutation may also delay the speed at which the body’s immune system can recognise, and deal with, the infection. Antibiotics may be taken to fight the bacteria — which further aggravate flu symptoms — but they do not actually target the virus itself.
So Singapore researchers have developed particles — each less than one—tenth the thickness of a human hair — that can recognise viruses.
Assistant Professor Tong Yen Wah, Faculty of Engineering, National University of Singapore, explained: "We create a nanoparticle that can recognise the entire structure of the virus, so even if the virus mutates partially, the structure will still be recognised by the nanoparticles and will still capture it to prevent infection."
The method involves mixing solvents and different organic molecules which researchers said can be commercialised cheaply and easily.
These are heated for 24 hours in low heat (40 degrees Celsius) under continuous stirring. The template molecules which are used to create the ’imprint’ are then dissolved through repeated washing, resulting in the nanoparticles.
The process behind Dr Tong’s work is called molecular imprinting. By fusing the nanoparticle and the virus, what he has done in effect is to create a new particle that will only recognise, and therefore capture, the specific virus.
The virus may then be removed from the body by cleaning the blood, in a process similar to kidney dialysis. Dr Tong is working on a handheld device that will do the job.
Another option is to inject the nanoparticles into the body, but he said dialysis is preferable as it is safer.
Molecular imprinting is not yet widely used in the industry, although some pharmaceutical companies use it to purify vitamins and proteins. The process has so far been used to capture small proteins, and this is the first time a team has successfully patented a way to capture large molecules.
Initial tests using this patented method on the protein Albumin have been successful, winning the team a US$100,000 grant from the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation.
And if the researchers can demonstrate their idea on viruses, they will receive an additional US$1 million in funding, while providing the world with another weapon against infectious disease. — CNA/ms

this is why i love singapore. sometimes we are being kiasu the right way.haha!

Spot me if you can!

i miss rugby.

b&b

2008-10-18T10:40:00.003+08:00

During these chaotic times, serenity can be a boon and a bane.

strolling in chinese garden can be fun at night.thats wad i've realised. and i've also found out that i react faster to my sense of hearing than my sense of sight. but not to worry, to prevent myself from going into shock i hav my trusted mp3.

A levels are just around the corner and it really pisses me off because during this crucial times, the best form of entertainment for me has to surface.music and rugby. i hav the money to buy the tickets but just not the time to waste watching. how sad is that.

firstly.....can you believe this?! its a whole bunch of percussionists performing..actually, not all of them are percussionist. the only thing i could use to convince myself from not going is that they will have the exact same show.Another 'Masters of Percussions' in the future, complete with giovanni hidalgo, just like in the CD.now that is truly entertaining.This show is mostly indian instruments. so its not really Masters of Percussion. the one which i have in CD form, those include congas, drums, all those latin percussion stuff.so the show is really when the masters of percussion totally combine to give a show. now thats wad i call be-e-aye-you-tiful!

Secondly...!!!

yes people!! SCC 7s. where one can find good hardhits, sleek sidesteps and the 'shocked-face' dive before the ref blow the whistle for a try! actually u can find that at most rugby games. haha! 2 days for $20. alot of action plus plenty of chics. soccer chics are basically bimbos. rugby chics are are much smarter + prettier.heh!

life is short.life is short.life is hot.life is short.life is sort.life is short.

2008-10-14T21:26:00.002+08:00

offcially, the letter came. im gg in on 6 january. vocation is the police force. i guess i'll be hanging around chua chu kang more often den...and look forward to only watch the next year Rubgy A divs championship.

its really terrible to be on the home team. i wanted to join the army, go into jungle and train, learn to throw hand grenades, shoot a rifle.or maybe the navy or air force, but all that is not going to happen. hopes and dreams dashed. to atleast try for guards and stuff. but all that is not gg to happen. i want a real tough time while serving NS. its a test of discipline. and many told me police force is a place to slack. in addition to that, they dun play rugby there. im very disappointed. and very disappointed with myself. im just soo unlucky. and for somebody who dislike the 'people of the law', im gg to have to be one of them. of all the people they put in the army, they choose those who would be more willing to slack and take MCs while those soo willing to go full speed ahead left in the dumpster. CMPB screwed up! haaai....

DISAPPOINTMENT!

its been a tough time. worst, patience thining.

a very tough time indeed...

2008-10-12T23:27:00.006+08:00

This is nasheerah! my first sis's 2nd child. she was named after me! wooot! She got chicken pox recently! since then, i always tell her she smells like chicken. and shes suppose to be a 'lara dutta' look-alike. i hav no idea why eh.but nvm!and this is ofcourse a snapshot of lara dutta and salman khan taken on the set of the hindi movie 'partner'. heee!!
this is usually the basic things one can find in my bag. hp charger,wallet, phone, perfume, keychains with only 1 key on it and rubics cube! and dat 'bubbles' doll wasnt and will never be found in my bag.
ppl say i got a long tongue. i duno how to measure it. she tried to poke my tongue with a pencil...

den she tried to puke in my mouth!

they are soo angelic when they are asleep. it makes me smile just watching this picture, over and over. how i wish they are mine...how i wish all my nieces are mine!

we really had a good time that nite. and both of them are growing up fast. i took a video of them talking about boyfriends. very cute. it will be up soon! wooot!

2008-10-11T17:55:00.004+08:00

i miss the old saregamapa. the really old ones! when sonu was the host! that is really very serious stuff. the show now is more for the teenage audience, portraying the image of hip and pop music. arghh!!! globalisation sets in again. i was just watching some of the old videos of saregama and i was quiet shock at the songs that the contestant sing then. Raag this...Raag that. and the judges are people dat even i dunno but i can for sure come to the conclusion that those people are really old school classical-singing legend because i saw zakir hussain seated next to them.

i dun really like the idea of saregama following the something like indian idol. it used to be a weekly battle of the contestant. that is really fun. and hardly do i see a live band playing like the old shows. i remember my whole family would sit infront of the tv to watch saregama, i wld be lying down and some seated here and there, my sister would be folding laundry but all eyes glued to the tv.nobody would change the channel and nobody wanted to. because it was soothing, it was entertaining, its now only memories.

and sonu nigam would sing a song before the whole show starts. that dun happen anymore.and they have special judges.by the end of the show they would come up to the stage and read out scores and the winner will come back next week and battle another contestant. one of the best segment would be 'judges choice'. sometimes u can see the contestant actually tremble awaiting to hear the judge's song choice. haiz! i miss saregama!!

u dun hear this on tv animore...how sad...

check this out... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k872b_rW8Y4

2008-10-07T10:03:00.002+08:00

You dont want to mess with this motherfucker.

Name: Kevin Ferguson
Alias : Kimbo Slice
Age : 34 as of Feb 8,2008
Ht: 1.88m
Wg:106 kg

street fighting legend off miami, florida. famous for his one punch knockout technique. technique, power, maturity, discipline and heart of a lion.

2008-10-05T22:33:00.003+08:00

life in singapore is sooo fast paced. to earn a living nowadays, we have to work our ass off just to achieve a decent living. go home sleep wake up and back to work, sometimes forgetting breakfast lunch and dinner. that is really bad. and u do know at times when one gets really tired from working, we need to eat to energise and sleep to rest. but in singapore, if you do just dat, they will have people to replace you. its that competitive even for degree holders.

its such a sad fact, but its really true. in addition to that, the cost of living is ever rising. we can hardly afford cars. the summons and ERP is enought to put the dreams of owning a car to sleep. A 'FINE' city. and the people taking on the public transports is astronomical now. they provide seats just enought for the needy while the rest pay a huge load to stand.how sad! there is no alternative cheap mode of transport. its always Pay And Pay.but that is beside the point.

wad im trying to say is when people overwork and have to pack like sardines and do the most scarriest things to lead a decent living, should the government do something to provide us a better life? its not like everybody is sitting on their asses waiting for money to fall from the sky.
i tink we should consider letting singaporeans enjoy the finer things in life. less work. more pay.

before everybody starts doing this in the mrt....

the people around him can laugh now. but my predictions is that if nothing is done to help singaporeans enjoy life...there wont be people laughing to such things on the train. everybody is busy sleeping..

how ironic..'busy sleeping'. does such a term even exist?

for emmj

2008-10-04T08:44:00.006+08:00

only for you farhanah,...

your sweet your kind your fun
like everything under the sun
you make me chase you around
i'll do it with my hands bound

your sugar ur spice and everything nice
i couldnt bring myself to ever tell a lie
you make me feel excited yet calm
with your unique aura of sweet balm

you brought me to my highest point
and your always fail to dissapoint
your the jewel on the crown
and im jester and the clown

you made a rose a simple flower
just you and not might and power
you made my world beautiful again
you help removed my ball and chain

life had been such a bore
you ended my pity snore
with sweet love,you pour
how can it not be,
your the one i adore.

EF WAN!

2008-10-02T12:07:00.007+08:00

yes! finally i got time! F1 was simple awesome. eventho singapore will be doing it for the next 5 years, its wont be the same as the first time. it was truly experimental yet with high success. and i have a thing for being the first. like going for the first NDP at marina bay with diq. it was a memorable nite. but unlike NDP, F1 was a more 'movable' event. armed with a digicam i strayed at first den roamed when i knew i had acess to aniwhr basically. climbing and jumping to get spots to shoot the cars. it was mildly adventurous i have to say. and the best part is i went alone. so i dun have another opinion to change my mind when i did silly things.

the first thing i notice on the way there was the smell of burning rubber.u can see skid marks on the tracks and the atmosphere was slightly smoking, maybe due to the nascar test runs they had in the afternoon. i was realli all hyped-up. i mean, i love cars. the faster the better.and being a singaporean living in a 'fine' city, F1 cars are the fastest legally right now to have on the streets. so i rather not miss this beautiful chance.who knows i might not live to see the next SG grand prix.saw afew local starlets on the way there. but even that is not enough to steal the show.

den the test rounds begun, followed by the qualifying rounds.it was fun to see F1 on tv, the engine sounds nice. very adrenaline rushing noise, especially during cornering. kind give me the temptation to glance at the tv. but den im seeing and hearing this for real now! its TOO loud. thats the best part! when the show itself drowns the noise of the crowd, nobody else can steal the show now. other den this, i would say the next best thing would be to actually sit at the pit stop grandstand and better den that, to race a F1 car itself. thats the reason i rather take manual license. with hope one day i get to race in those real speed demons! haha!

it was awesome to see the crowd cheering and all. especially during the last round when they are waiting for the seconds when the car pass the finishing line. becaus ein such a sports, even the miliseconds matter. travelling at almost 300km/h or 83.3m/s life is a blur and the g forces are enough to knock an average man out. its not just skills and good decision, healt and luck plays a part. while working i managed to bump into some of the drivers in the gym and had a little chat. some can be a dick, and some are just plain old guys. and i saw shilpa shetty too! hotstuff!

ok back to that nite, den the race was done, but its not over. now i got to race home. beat the crowd by walking to bugis instead and was home in a jiffy. a nite worth remembering and reliving over and over!

once i get fucking youtube to be working and properly uploading videos...i'll post it on my blog. for now..just hang in there..

some photos.

and the videos...part 1 and 2..

my dad's back home. for a week now. and he cooks breakfast when hes not working. its nothing special but its always nice. i get reminded of how i see chefs in the ritz modifing recipies with what ever food they could find left. u see!...that why men are just better den women at everything. women can look at the cook book and still destroy everything. haha!

delay on F1 post

2008-09-30T00:45:00.003+08:00

i hate it when i cant sleep. every part of me is tired but i just cant sleep. and its really fucking pissing me off.

how i wish i can install a switch button on my head. *click* and i go into rest mode. maybe a timer to set for 8 hours.

i dunno why. i've nv had such a problem before. everything was fine but than came one thing after another. i feel like ripping out my heart, freeze it and thaw it back when november ends. i have got to be independent, my chance is over. procastinating might be the cause of my restless nites. as D-day looms just around the corner, im preparing but just not really sure for what. to score As? or just to get it over and done with because im truly sick of studying.

time is of the essence. discipline is important. think of your future. focus and concentrate on studies and nothing else should bother you. kill your soul for the next 2 months. time is of the essence. discipline is important. think of your future. focus and concentrate on studies and nothing else should bother you. kill your soul for the next 2 months. time is of the essence. discipline is important. think of your future. focus and concentrate on studies and nothing else should bother you. kill your soul for the next 2 months.

i have to print this and burn it, mix the ashes with water and drink it. i'll make a stamp and stomp it all over my room. write it on a post-it and paste it on my forehead so that i can read it in the mirror. i'll do anithing to remember those few phrases. yet..when the going gets tough..am i tough enough to keep going?

sell your soul nash, nobody wants it nor you need it!

calm yet excited.

2008-09-25T10:57:00.004+08:00

im getting bored!
im feeling restless!
i feel the need to be constantly entertained!
worst, im running out of sources!

along came a spider... tikiti tat! tikiti tat!

jab se tere naina mere naino se laage re
tabse deewaana huwa, sabse begaan huwa
rab bhi deewaana laage re... ; P

yesterday was really really fun. after the studying thing. bike ride. everything was truly unexpected. unexpected is bad to me but yesterday wasnt soo damaging. other than very wet pants and shoes. everything else was a breeze, in the social sector ONLY!

gp was truly a heartbreak. unlike other who push themselves, this kind of 'road bumps' pushes me away from study. its like im not showing improvement when i do, so why should i. its demoralising. thks to the fucking tight-pants gayboy who marked my paper and left sarcastic comments. looking at my GP summary, it just goes to show your not so perfect afterall. IDIOT!

chocolates on the lips alert! haha!

2008-09-22T14:12:00.003+08:00

lets groove. Sergio Mendez - Magdalenha

as promised...lets check out prof morrie!

have i told you about the tension of opposite'? he says
the tension of opposite?
'life is a series of pulls back and forth. you want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. something hurts you, yet u know you should never take things for granted'.

'a tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band.And most of us live somewhere in the middle'.
'sounds like a wrestling match', i say.
'A wrestling match'. he laughs. 'yes, you could describe life that way'

'so which side wins', i ask
'which side wins'?
he smiles at me, the crinkle eyes, the crooked teeth.
'love wins. love always wins'
------------

'do you know how they brainwash people? they repeat something over and over. owning things is good. more money is good. more property is good. more is good, more is good.we repeat it-and have it repeated to us-over and over until nobody bothers to tink otherwise.the average person is fogged up by all this, he has no perspective on what's really important anymore.

wherever i went in life, i met people wanting to gobble up something new. gobble up a new car. gobble up a new property.gobble up the latest toy.and then they wanted to tell you about it.'guess what i got?guess what i got?'

these were people so hungry for love that they were accepting substitutes. they were embracing material things and expecting a sort of hug back. but it never works.you cant substitute material things for love or gentleness or for tenderness or for a sense of comradeship.

money is not a substitute for tenderness, and power is not a substitute for tenderness.i can tell you, as im sitting here dying, when you most need it, neither money nor power will give you the feeling you're looking for, no matter how much of them you have.
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people are only mean when they're threatened and thats what our culture does.that's what our economy does.even people who have jobs in our economy are threatened, because they worry about losing them and when you get threatened, you start looking out only for yourself. you start making money a god. it is all part of this culture.
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death
fear
aging
greed
marriage
family
society
forgiveness
a meaningful life.

thanks morrie.

my greatest lesson

2008-09-21T03:05:00.003+08:00

im really really touched by this book. tuesday with morrie really open my eyes to what i intend to do. to change the world, to spread love. but then again morrie tells me that wads the point of changing the world when i am not doing anything significant to my surrounding. people who i meet everyday, whose faces i see when i wake up in the morning, who puts bread on the table, people whom i have got responsibility over, people who washes my clothes people who washed my bum when i was a baby.

i realised that as much as i have always said and knew how much i loved them, i've done nothing to really show it to them. to prove to them that i meant what i said. maybe because im always acting tough and slightly condone those touchy feely things like hugs and kisses. but after finishing the book, i realised that it would mean so much to hug my parents and siblings even once in my life.these are the people who i would lay my life for, give my heart in exchange for their ailing ones. for once i dun feel the pressure of exams because i know they will be there to support me even when im a loser in life.

when i close my eyes and tries to sleep, i couldnt help picturing wad i am going to do during raya day.for once it really felt good to cry.and i couldnt stop smiling and get excited unnecessarily.there goes my sleepyness feeling.i really want to make my apologise and love for them really felt this time.i have to, for thru this book, i realised that i can never know when i wont be able to do so.atleast i'll be at peace knowing they know i love them. this is the only imperfection i see in my life now.its not the money i want, now my ferrari that i want or to be a teacher or pilot or wadever.such things are mere materials. and nothing could be compared to me showing how much i love my family.

i tot i could wait atleast till morning to speak out my mind.but its very late and there is nobody who is willing to entertain me at this hour except for my blog.i dun care if they tink im silly or too emotional to do such stuff but like wad happen to morrie, i dun want it to happen to me to. i dun want to live with regret.its painful.like morrie said love others or perish. i read it early in the book and felt nothing.i read it at the end with the meaning carved into my soul. it doesnt harm anybody to show that you love them.

the greatest thing after god is family.i love my family.(everybody does wad?!heh!) and i thank mitch albom for penning down such a beautiful piece.truly the best book i have ever read. i will do it during raya! i will and i promise!

and i love my frens too! im going sleep now. R.I.P professor morrie.

2008-09-18T13:07:00.002+08:00

i wanted to blog today but suddenly i feel lazy.
i've completed another stage of RTC and plenty more to go.
i want to go to pulau ubin again. but this time with my family.
and i want to get myself rollerblades.

i cant get enough of the riffs from hella good by no doubt.
i feel like writing an essay now.
my mouth taste funny, maybe because i have not brush my teeth.
my hair is getting long and i need to shave my face again.

i know i got a nice butt.heh!
i feel like cutting off my belly.
i miss rugby.
and i hate exams.

i need bong.

2008-09-15T11:35:00.003+08:00

The Singhsons!
something i found.. some appetizers..

i need bong, i need bong, i need bong.

why why why?

becooooooos...
i want to fly to the moon and plant my own flag.
i want to reach the top of mount everest and plant my own flag.
i want to go to the deepest point in the world's ocean, say hi to the giant squid and plant my own flag.
i want to land on the sun and plant my own flag.

and by planting my own flag, i meant to pee. and that would put out the sun.i love the world! im sorry,world.

did you know that the first man on mount everest unzip and peed after he reach the top. how cool is dat?! how many people in this world can say i've peed on top of mount everest. THAT! is why i want to 'plant my own flag' at selected places. hah!

to my next point.
lately i noticed that i know alot about animals. i like watching documentaries and all but i didnt know i could recall details. officially, now i know how my memory works. so if something or sombody wants to be remembered by me forever, u have to do something or dat thing itself would make me go ....OOooOOoOOOo! in addition to that, i realised im such a freak when it comes to discovery channel and national geographic. maybe people's quest for knowledge is thru book. i quench my thirst for knowledge thru this two channel. its never-ending information download.

like the discovery channel's new jingle. i will sing this to my kids!

-'it never gets old uh?'
-'nope'
-'it kinda makes u wanna break into song?
-'yep'

i love the mountains
i love the clear blue skies
i love big bridges
i love when great white flies
i love the whole world
and all its sights and sounds

BOOM-DEEA-DA BOOM-DEEA-DA
BOOM-DEEA-DA BOOM-DEEA-DAaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

i love the ocean
i love the real dirty things
i love to go fast
i love egyptian kings
i love the whole world
and all its craziness

BOOM-DEEA-DA BOOM-DEEA-DA
BOOM-DEEA-DA BOOM-DEEA-DA!

i love tornados
i love Arachnids
i love my magma
i love the giant squids
i love the whole world
its such a brilliant place

BOOM-DEEA-DA BOOM-DEEA-DA
BOOM-DEEA-DA BOOM-DEEA-DAaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
BOOM-DEEA-DA (sway right) BOOM-DEEA-DA (sway left)
BOOM-DEEA-DA (sway right) BOOM-DEEA-DA (sway left)

awesome aint it?! one more time!

i will never have enough or stop swaying to this!
its so...erm...boom deea da! boom deea da! haha! and for sure this video is in my mp3.

how scary is this?!-
Spicy food may have killed British bride in India, says doctor!

and tomorrow evening is the day i've soo been waiting for.

wondering how jingles get stuck in ur head?!..

Jingles are designed to infiltrate your memory and stay there for years, sometimes popping up from out of nowhere.

Psychologists and neurologists who study the effects of music on the brain have found that music with a strong emotional connection to the listener is difficult to forget. It was this discovery that led marketers to license pop songs for advertising instead of commissioning original jingles. It turns out that some pop songs contain earworms: pleasantly melodic, easy-to-remember "hooks" that have the attributes of a typical jingle.

Earworms, also known by their German name, "ohrwurm," are those tiny, 15- to 30-second pieces of music that you can't get out of your head no matter how hard you try (the phenomenon is also called Song Stuck Syndrome, repetuneitis, the Jukebox Virus and melodymania). The word "earworm" was popularized by James Kellaris, a marketing professor at the University of Cincinnati, who has done a great deal (for better or worse) to bring this phenomenon to the forefront of the study of advertising techniques.

We don't know much about what causes earworms, but it could be the repeating of the neural circuits that represent the melody in our brains. It might also have to do with some of the findings of researchers Alan Baddely and Graham Hitch, and the model of working memory, the part of the brain that practices and repeats verbal information. In 1974 Baddely and Hitch discovered what they called the phonological loop, which is composed of the phonological store (your "inner ear," which remembers sounds in chronological order) and the articulatory rehearsal system (your "inner voice," which repeats these sounds in order to remember them). This area of the brain is vital in early childhood for developing vocabulary and in adulthood for learning new languages.

-quote of 'howstuffworks.com'

boom deea da boom deea da! : P

inspirational stories....

2008-09-11T12:24:00.002+08:00

down right evil!! but super duper funny!

i better start losing weight...before i start losing my things..

this is why u should never get drunk with a group of boys. either u get raped or they make u look like u got raped. haha!

innovative thinking in action...very smart.

howcome they nv change it? ok probably by now something has been done right?

suddenly my throat feels funny. do we have blue whale in singapore waters? isnt all the worlds ocean connected? erm...since when blue whales existed!!? how many blue whales are there in the ocean? ooooo shit...

hopefool

2008-09-10T00:07:00.006+08:00

sometimes being nice allow people the opportunity to make you look like an idiot.

touché nash...touché..

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

2008-09-07T22:04:00.002+08:00

the transition from a low class hopeless bum to a street-smart teacher begin tomorrow. and it shall last for the next 40 days before it last forever.

im 20. im a guy. i haven gone to NS and yet to complete my studies. people my age are already enrolling into universities. and im dead shit out of luck. discipline is such a word that has a great impact upon practice. its not easy being a person who use more of his brans than brain. dat i definitely admit. yet, nothing is impossible right?!

i want..

to get my licenses asap. including PPL.

to get over and done with A levels. its about time also.

to fill up my empty wardrobe.

to go bungee jumping and parachuting once before i die.

to buy my own laptop. a decent gaming, media and working machine.

to be a tech-geek with a dozen gizmos but still keep my 6610i hp.

i need...

to score a Good A level cert.

to be stable before i turn 27.

to own a house and a nice car before 27.

to relinquish my faith with god.

i dream for this...

meet the ferrari modena 360. not for racing, just for the blurry paint viewing.

or this...

meet eleanor. made by ford. a souped up fastback shelby. totally sickening.

this is ofcourse when/if i earn atleast $500,000 every year. and it comes with a condo with gym,steam room and swimming pool. but still, its a dream. i might not get this, im sure i will soup up whatever ride i get. exterior doesnt matter when ur interior is a monster. and when the dust is on ur opponent's windshield. poof! goes the chic-magnet.

i feel the need to speed. the need to make my surrounding a blurry paint and nothing else matter but the dead end ahead. this is why im dying to get my license. to play with the clutch and sink myself into the bucket seats forced by the torque produced by my mean machine as it roars to life and people will turn to see my shadow still lagging behind while i wait for the next green light.

the need for speed. i really need to race and crash before i had enough. till den, no traffic police nor dude can stop me.

a book which i think is not a waste of my time. then, definitely not a waste of yours. if i can continously flip this book and even finish it, its as good as the book of the decade. and not for the people who hate the law and lawyers.

who am i?

2008-09-05T23:44:00.003+08:00

its not about you getting beaten and fall to the ground in shame.

its about whether you put up a fight to defend yourself before falling to the ground. there is then no shame in that.

or even better, u keep getting up to receive the blows over and over again until u make people believe that you are invincible.

that is what i want to be, to be.

to make people believe that im invincible.

flesh and bone made of adamantium.

impenetrable.

unbreakable.

bulletproof.

soo much random thoughts, its all messed up.

i feel tired yet im not.i feel sleepy but i cant sleep.

i can have all the money in the world. buy anithing i want. yes,even love and happiness can be bought nowadays. but still no matter what, i cant buy wad i really need.

TIME...

i need a break. a break from life itself.

memories...

2008-09-04T10:44:00.017+08:00

i like my wittyness! i like my spontaneous respond to something soo stupid. and u know wad i like most, when i make people laugh! being the class clown and best joker in sec sch(self-proclaimed!), i was a natural. soo natural that even till today, my sec sch cliques can nv get tired of my jokes.i would diss just anybody and everybody. i mean a joke is at the expense of somebody else. u name it, sex jokes, insulting jokes, racist jokes, basically any joke.

thats i why i hate to make new friends. or more like its very hard for me to make new friends. i need to know that person really well to show them who i really am! or maybe i tend to make a fool of myself. i tink im soo funny thats why laughing gas doesnt work wonder on me like how it does on other people. ok enuff. i shall prove myself now.

instant jokes....

my friend was telling me an ugly girl walks into her class and tried to act cute by saying 'omg i feel like a bimbo...' den i shall stand up and say....girl!...ur not just a bimbo...ur so dumb! u tink ur pretty! dats worst den being ugly and stupid!

i wonder why they have words with negative connotations for girls only.words like bimbo, slut, bitch, stupid, idiot, asshole are made for girls. maybe guys are just so perfect. **oops..i smell controversies**
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and den there was the one about the bush, mahathir and LKY
there were on a plane to somewhere. otw there, they were given a challenge. to hump/bump/jump/screw a girl till she scream. bush went into the room first, and the girl was soo 'seasoned' nothing happened. next up mahathir and the girl almost fell asleep. den when LKY when in, seconds later the girl started screaming her lungs out. wads the secret?!...we singaporeans use our heads...heh!

firstly..dun question why are they in the plane,why they have a hooker on the plane and why the only passengers are them. hah!
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den there is the one when lets say somebody is doing something and is probably blocking my way. den when i ask him/her to move, they would probably go 'sabah,sabah' which means 'wait wait'. den i would retort ' sabah sebelah sarawak..'which means Sabah is beside Sarawak' and continue with like...'this is singapore' or 'i want it now' or 'u ass hole!' hah!

for those who dun get it, u probably fail geography. start studying asshole! heh!
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den there is the 'fuck you joke'...i luuurve it when a girl says that to me. wad better comeback den me telling her 'maybe later, behave for now!' and if shes super angry and say im ugly or wad ever...i'll smile and say...'i said maybe baby, it doesnt mean im going to show up.' BAM!

and if its a boy, hes jaw is probably broken after dat. so he cant make a comeback after i retort. or i'll just say...'stay away dick! im homophobic! ' ahahha!
male bitch?! do they exist! hah!
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a friend of mine was complaining that her leg is in pain due to some complications. her family member told her to go check up with the doc but she told me she dont want to. heh! and so i told her its ok...she dun have to, just go get new legs at SGH, they have nice ones and the best part is she dun have to shave her legs ever again! hah! im gooooooood!...
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ok im getting bored already. i cant do this thing. it has to be spontaneous. so if u want the best jokes be around me all the time. no guarantees u wont be the butt of my jokes?...hmmm..maybe i shud try MTV's Yo momma.

ok im done...40 more days to A lvls. suit up, boot up, we're in for one hell of a night!
i found some old pictures of myself. it scarry to realise my weights fluctuate like a graph on the stock market.

Fuhlemak...dier punye 'look back'...and 'the shit ur fugly' look. priceless.

i dunno wad to say realli. i dunno wad i was tinking and i dun want to remember wadever i was tinking. this photo is bad. i tink i was trying to imitate how girl camwhore and give that cute smile wadever shit. but i certainly look cute!

and here we have nash trying to be a romantic (now he is a full force p***er). romeo a.k.a loverboy. ahak!

i like this picture alot. its like im saying 'dun f**k with me man. i'll blow ur brains out'.if i had said that to a girl or a guy, it will probably be a threat. but imagine those exact words used by a girl on a guy. wouldnt u guys be happy to hear that?! **sings**lets get it on...get it on the floor..get it..get it on the floor!**

ok basically, i cant really see myself. i admit. my hair seems to blend in with the tree behind. but dats besides the point. my intention was to show how slim i as at my prime. but this isnt my prime yet...its was just the beginning.

finally..a nice picture. a 'moment' pic perhaps, right?

the things i would do to make people laugh. but den AGAIN thats besides the point. now stop laughing and take note of my figure! somebody tole me i look like my dad. like duh!? wad were u tinking?! im a huge chip off the old block.

this is one of the reasons why physical pain is just another word for me.i got this in the morning, and by that evening i was at east coast enjoying the nite away. no medication,no iodine cotton pads, nothing. just cover it up with tissue. btw thats my legs.

because i am sooo funny and entertaining! i dun realli laugh at my jokes or other people's joke. so at times people go to the extremes to entertain me. in this case...i dunno wad to say...well at least the expressions on their faces shows that they are enjoying themselves. good for you ~~guys~~ homos. ...haiz..the things people would do to entertain me!

i look like a dork, dont i?but the life of all parties has arrived. doesnt look like it but trust me, its the truth. u know wad they always say...dont judge a book by its cover.

we are not gay. just very good brothers.

i had this calculator since i was in sec 2. and now, just afew weeks ago, somebody stole it from my bag. why cant u just wait till after A lvl? i miss this calculator.

a locker is suppose to be filled with book, notes and files. this is wad u get when your student is a rugby player.

yes girls! i know you gals like it thick and looong! hah!

ok..i tink thats all for now...

sleep deprivation

2008-08-30T03:58:00.003+08:00

its my 455th post. its 0358hrs on 30th of august now.i've got nothing but time to kill.

you would probably be wondering what the hell am i doing up so early in the morning. the fact is i've slept yet and im going to work soon. taxi will be here in 50 mins. goddamn!

i've been having sleeping problems lately. especially with the exams nearing, im always disturbed with alot of scarry thoughts each time i close my eyes to wonder to lala land. but it just keeps me awake and its really irritating me. i need the sleep.i need the rest. i've even thought of going to the doctor and make him prescribe me sleeping pills. but some advise me against that.they do not want me to become independent on it.

i was tinking like maybe i should give it a try. desperate times means desperate measures. i dun realli care if i get dependent on it. its just for the time being.hopefully after A levels im able to sleep peacefully then.im just worried and lately this worrying thing has been increasing to drastic level. which just provide me with another thing to worry about. sleeping!

insomniac? i dun tink so. at times i can realli sleep like a baby.some people say im a morning person but to me i dun realli tink so.dats because i can hardly wake up and go to school on time.but the effort is there!our body has a internal alarm clock. when u wake up a certain time regularly, ur body recognises it and without the alarm clock ringing, u will wake up naturally.i just have this habit that once i wake up or get disturbed from my sleep its even harder to continue it.especially when my room is all bright.

its not that im being choosy or anithing but when i sleep, it has to be really quiet and dark and undisturbed for the next few hours so that i can really rest.hence this is why i say i sleep like a baby.this is ofcourse on a normal day. on days that im super tired physically and mentally, i can just sleep despite a bomb exploding beside me.how i wld do anithing to sleep like my brother. u can shout in his ear and wake him up but the next moment hes back sleeping.food for though, sleeping excessively can cause health problems.

the best part i like about not getting enough sleep is that i'll be super sleepy by late afternoon.i planned to go to ubin after work today but with me not sleeping, i doubt i can find the ability to resist being fuckin cranky.YES i get cranky without enough sleep.sad fact but true.like how hulk gets angry with provocation, i turn into hulk when i lack sleep.its scarry and i hate such a trait in me!

hopefully i can last through work without getting caught sleeping somewhere.and now im feeling realli sleepy already.i hate this! I HATE THIS!!! i really want to sleep now but there is not enough time. its getting really bad. im tired of counting sleep to sleep. yes, i do such a thing literally but with imaginary sheeps. suddenly i have this urge to ask my bro to call my manager and cook up a story that im in hospital for super high fever. its just sooo bloody tempting. but arrrgh! ive been trusted this responsibility. besides im psyching up myself to be a good samaritan and the fasting month is a stepping stone. hopefully with the help of god im able to conquer my desires and continue it for the rest of my life.

did you know that before islam, religions are based on skin colour, caste and status. islam is unique that u can be anybody but if ur a muslim, ur as equal as any other tom dick or harry.its a good practice to unite people despite differences. we are all one under a faith. i saw this thing on a documentary on national geographic 's prophet mohammed.

and in case u racist bastard start saying that prophet mohammed married young virgins for his own desire, you are wrong! he married them because he help them as their husbands died in wars fighting for islam. all in all he had 11 wives of which 3/4 are for the above mentioned reason.so do ur research before making judgements. he is not as demented as some people are nowadays. unlike people who torture slaves, he is nice to them. he preaches unity in believing in one god and he is the messengger of god. just dat simple. there is no forcing to convert to islam, no missionaries to brainwash and no incentives for believing in allah. its just u and ur relation to god which will determine ur life after death. such a documentary had such a big impact on me.

i feel the need to relinquish my faith and lead a better life. why wait any longer, the holiest month is just around the corner. just one wish, help me god.

till den....(0430hrs 3oth aug 2008)

2008-08-29T00:23:00.002+08:00

today's GP paper was rather interesting. fear is so scarry that people are fearing to fear itself.and the most disgusting thing is people can even collect for compensation for being fearful and not the actual fear itself happening. i like the line where the author said 'no longer do people fear god and hell...fear is instilled by pollution and cancer.

borned to fight, trained to kill and tortured to fear nothing but god.

i noticed that as i put in effort to study and score for gp, i begin to really think when im all by myself. issues about the world. poverty, hunger and problems closer to home like increasing standard of living. sometimes i wish the world was a better place where people really cared for each other. greed is soo evil.

songs like MJ's they dont care about us and LP's what ive done are the seeds of my raging thoughts to change the world. howcome super powers are not able to do anithing about all this?
why cant we live as one world. we are globalizing fast, and geographical boundaries doesnt realli matter animore. doesnt that make us a global society?

yet, people exploit at every chance they can find. the race to riches will never end. as the rich gets richer, the poorer is getting poorer. many leaders emphasise on the issue of being fair. yet many babies now either start their life now on extreme ends of the money scale.its very hard to break out of poverty nowadays. the competition to succeed is to great. and as u all know, money makes the world go round. its a sad fact of modern life.

despite the endless paper chase,many tend to drive the idea that education is not the key to success. but the truth is,if u dun have education, u dun even get a chance to step on the stepping stone.however, some may argue that, u can be successful thru music and sports etc but such sector themselves are highly competitive and guarantees no safety net. u go mute or break a leg and ur career could be over.we can hardly leave it to chance nowadays. one mistake and u could bear responsible for it for life.hence do not believe people who say that education is not the only key to success; these people probably have degrees themselves. bleh!

dats all for now.

revelation

2008-08-25T23:42:00.003+08:00

-the rose represent accomplishment.when the sun rise, and the rain comes down and the rainbow shines..a rose would bloom.
-the colour black signifies the darkside of anger.the ugly side that will appear when things do not follow the black rules.
-the whole logo represents the a person who do things his way, the way he want it to be done period.no negotiation, no deal, no mercy.

my definition of retrival expert.

The many images of Retrivial Expert. suddenly i have a carving for tribal tattoos. as much i want to get want one , i do not believe any form of body mutilation. i love dwayne johnson's body art. its fabulous.

how nice would dat look on my back or maybe on the back of my next or on my forearm.

too much miami ink. im soo getting influence.

how do i say things that i dont want u to know? why cant u read my mind?
why am i like this when i feel sad? as much as i want to talk abt it, im soo used to keeping things to myself. its unhealthy but then old habits die hard.

how i wish ppl would know that as much as im all soo happy and enjoying life, i do get worried and feel low as much.

i feel like a superficial player on championship manager. where my morale is very low and there is nothing the manager can do abt it but to wait. i dunno how long it will take. i can sleep it off, or it will be a very bad day tomorrow.

emo emo emo. elmo elmo elmo.

be nice. just be nice.

2008-08-17T08:25:00.004+08:00

i have not been watching hindi movies for a long time.but now since i've made a pact to myself not to steal library book animore, i kind of had to depend on hindi movies to past my boring times. why not english movie u ask!? simple..im just too lazy to go out and rent as well as sit at the computer waiting for the illegal copies to load.hah! a few years back when my sisters are at home, they would always go to serangoon road and start looking for hindi movies on VCD. den we will all watch at home. eventho we have already watched it at the theatre. for example, dil to pagal hai and ishq. there are many more but i can only tink of this two. there is some explaination behind this but im not going to elaborate.

back on track, recently i've been cathing up on some not so latest hindi movies. yes..its astonishing how i spend my time when im bored. so i watched 'em and noticed this lady-vidya balan. shes pretty, shes charismatic and shes plus-size! yes! its so hard nowadays to see plus size heroines.

vidya balan- always deserve a 2nd glance.

yup. i didnt realli noticed her in 'heyy baby maybe because i was more captivated by the comedy part, continuously laughing. but the recent 'kismat konnection' which she plays a more pivotal role then only did i notices this gorgeous needle in the haystack. dats not all. one more would be katrina kaif. first sight would be in the movie 'Partner'. but love at first sight would be during the movie 'welcome'!

Katrina Kaif- BAM! What more should i say?

i feel like blogging samo. but aaaargh! something happen. no mood!!!

2008-08-14T11:08:00.002+08:00

i love Horoscope and Astrology.
they always have something nice to say about me.

basic info:
Nashahrudin (handsome)
3rd feb 1988
20 years old as of 3rd feb 2008.

Aquarius ~ The Water Bearer
Aquarius ~ January 21st - February 19th
Ruling Element ~ Air Sign
Ruling Planet ~ Saturn & Uranus
Metal ~ Platinum
Plants ~ Orchid; daffodil
Trees ~ Peach; cherry
Stones/Jewels ~ Turquoise & Garnet

AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart
Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality.

*how cute! haha..i like the friendly and loyal part.*

Personality
These people are not at all conservative, in anyway. The do not conform to an ideal just because other’s do. they follow there own ideals and beliefs and these are normally more connected to the more alternative way’s of life. Aquarian people make very loyal and good friends, and will always be there to help you if they are needed. At the same time if they are not needed you may not see the Aquarius for day’s, weeks and even months is not unusual. They will be off somewhere doing something important. Or perhaps just having some well needed ‘alone time’.

muahaha! im loving this!

Health
The Aquarius needs a lot of fresh air, and likes to have the windows open even in the winter! Too much heat will make the Aquarius feel quite ill. The parts of the body associated with this sign are the ankles/shins. Sprains are common for this sign. If this sign does get ill it is most likely to be from an accident rather than from a virus such as the flu. If you are the spouse of an Aquarius expect to run around for him/her (especially him) if he/she has to take to bed. You will be expected to be nurse to some degree. The Aquarius hardly ever goes to the doctor, and doesn’t like taking prescribed medications at all. Alternative therapies are normally the direction that the Aquarius heads in and is normally right at choosing what is the right treatment for which illness.

Career
The Aquarius is very intelligent but often chooses to go for jobs where he/she feels that there is a cause involved that is worthwhile. Although some do very well at university and can learn just about anything they always seem to end up doing something different than what they had originally started out to do. For instance, they may prefer to do some work for a friend and get payed less because it is worthy than get payed more for something that isn’t so. Modern technology ghas brought an interest to the Aquarius males especially as they love to solve problems. So computer technology is often a good place for an Aquarius to gain knowledge. Money isn’t everything to an Aquarius, if they need some for something they will earn more, but if it is just for themselves then they are not so bothered really. A lot of Aquariun’s especially the women are great with instruments. And would be wasted if they did not in some way become involved in music. Basically though the Aquarius is a very capable person and can do anything, but only if that is what the Aquarius chooses. They can be just as good at doing nothing at all!!

and a search off my birth date says that im a rabbit.

THE RABBIT-
Sociable, Discreet, Refined, Shrewd, Perceptive, Sensitive, Aloof.
While they may not like it, the Rabbit is a timid, attractive being who is usually non-confrontational. Rabbits are very popular with friends and family. They are inherently compassionate and protective of those they care about. Rabbits idealize their relationships and may give far more of themselves than is healthy. Fortunately the Rabbit surrounds itself with friends and family who will help it regain its balance when thrown off emotionally. Rabbits are a bit fragile and need a solid social foundation in order to thrive. Without a strong family and close friends the Rabbit will not stand up well to adversity. Rabbits are so sensitive to their feelings that any emotional upset may make them physically sick. Rabbits can be pessimistic if they feel as though their lives are at a stand-still. By nature they are insecure about their place in the world. Rabbits move through life at their own pace. They are both contemplative and often procrastinators.Rabbits love the home life. Within a strong family environment the Rabbit may find the security it needs to blossom and become more self-assertive.

Ideal jobs:
Antique dealer, Diplomat, Administrator, Interior decorator, Politician, Historian, Art collector, Barrister, Tailor, Receptionist, Chemist, Landlord, Pharmacist, Beautician, Accountant, Librarian.

Lucky numbers:
1, 3, 5, 9, 15, 19 and 35.

Take note of the number 1 and 3. those are my jersey numbers when i play rugby and walk out off the field standing strong. no injuries. no wonder i couldnt excel as a number 8. damn.

this is like sooo fun. so 'de javu'. its like somebody telling me who i am and i go ' omg! how the heck do you know!'. this also says that there are others like me out there. im not all alone! muahaha! the health part is soo true. i hardly ever get sick and when i get hurt its because of injury, rugby training or i get all burned out and aching after gg to the gym. and i hated going to the doctor. even if its to the polyclinic to get and MC for skipping school. i rather get into trouble or sneak into school. i feel better like dat.hah!

finally..i love computers! i love riddles,teasers and something to make me think out of the box! its so thrilling. and do i even have to say about my interest in music!? BAAM!

anyways...im having trouble sleeping at night. im having panic attacks just closing my eyes to go to sleep. im tinking abt everything that is happening in my life. its so scarry. exams!!! aaargh! panic attack!

its like i got soo much to do but sooo little time! aniways..i got my priorties list up! bam!

2008-08-11T22:28:00.003+08:00

Bakhuda Tumhi Ho 2008 - Atif Aslam & Alka Yagnik

im addicted to this song.

because of you, for you...

my lady luck.

problems problems problems.

2008-08-09T08:34:00.003+08:00

Problem problem problem.

i hav to agree my life isnt the worst case scenario of a problematic life. im sure there are others out there who are going through worst that wad i tink hell is to me. now comes the time of my life which give me so much problems, so much stress it even haunts me in my dreams. its like a swinging pendulum. one moment everything is bliss! and in a split second its all shitty.

but being an optimistic person with a handful experience with problems, i choose to shut it all away and show no emotion. in other words 'i dun care'. it does affects me. the littlest things that changes affects me because i am not very adaptable. i used to depend on the chance that when all is good i depended on it to feul my happiness. but time and again i get dissapoint as the fuels run out. over the years, as i mature, i realised that i have to find my own fuel for my own happiness.

someone once told me that 'siblings are god-given choice upon you whereas friends are choices at ur own freewill'. hence choose your friends wisely. i miss sadiq.i miss salleh.they are very busy nowadays. how i wish i had gone to army instead so that when we ORD..we do it together! but like i say, things changes. so now i hav to go hunting for fuels again in this fuel-scarce world.i hate to do this. as anti-social as i can be, i hav a hard time making friends. i hate to be superficial. i want to make friends with ppl who knows me, my attitude, my crudeness, my jokes, my tantrums, those who share common interest with me and the ones who i can share my problems and thoughts with.

wouldnt all of that be fun? life short :) enjoy it while it last!

answers for sale

2008-08-04T19:11:00.002+08:00

what have i done?!what am i doing?!

numerous examples lay peacefully before me.all had a fairytale ending.but why is it bothering me? is it insecurity?is it trust? how do i find answers?who do i turn to?who CAN i turn to?

have i neglected my family that long,till the point that trust is a mere word?its complicated, too complicated. in a lineage squeezed between pride and prejudice,breaking free is taboo! unless there is others to revolt together beside me. maybe then,i'll realise that im not alone and im not walking down this path alone.maybe then, such problems will not matter to me.

A soul who believes that failing will only make one a better person and perfection isn't everything.And that soul has not been allowed to practice his beliefs.

YET,im afraid of failure.its painful.its demoralizing.the muriels i had to paint over old wounds to cover the scars took along time to complete.

i now believe that an unregretful decision can only be made with proper advice and assurance.A decision taken hastily will only lead to remorse.

im old enough to realised that living day to day is a thing of the past.im old enough to know that it is very important the achieve my mid-term goals.in contrary, im afraid to think about my long term goals. only the journey is written, the destiny is awaiting to be carved by time.

as much as i dream of a life where the future is unknown, i cant fulfill it because the flaw of such dreams lies at the fact that what i do will affect the others around me.i wish i had the whole world to myself,but at the same time life would be so boring being all alone.

i have found my answer.

movies!

2008-07-31T23:44:00.003+08:00

two movies in one day. super happening la. kismat konnection was simply beautiful. a predictable yet funny and touching love story. touche! to shahid kapoor, the beautiful vidya balan and crew! the ending was even more happening ar! ahahahaha! :P
told ya' im gonna get cha'!

as in learn in gp,being absolute is never a good answer!

Much anticipated dissapointment!

the mummy 3 was largely dissapointing with a little bit of excitement! unlike its 2/3 prequels, this circles around the mystery of china's history. me being a cock, would know shit abt the great wall of china except its in china and its long and it can be seen from space. eh no...i knew david copperfield fooled us into believing he walked thru it, i knew its one of the seven wonders of the world, that its used to protect ancient china from its mongolian rivals and genghis khan. basically just dat, and not at all on how, what and when its built and by whom.OFCOURSE i know its by the chinese but i meant exactly who! aniways...

fraser and li battling it out

since the previous few sequels were based on egypt mythology, it was rather very much interesting to me. firstly because i dont know anything about egyptian mythology and secondly, we learn abt china in school. so all the ming, ching bling bling dynasty...kinda know already.besides, the movie is subtly based on the great wall of china. its sooo not cool uh. like china cant be depicted because of the great wall of china only?!...they have got a huge vault of history!! they invented the compass, they founded gunpowder, they had the first photocopy machine.so my point is like how they can roughly cook up a story on egyptian mythology, im sure they can do exactly the same for china history.thats would sooo make my imagination run super wild and u can lead the movie with so much twist and turns. which leads to my next point.

Michelle Yeoh and Isabella Leong as Zi Juan and Lin. Asian beauties!

the movie is rather predictable.you just know the mummy has to attain power b4 they could defeat them. but they depict the characters as if they can kill the mummy b4 it regain its powers.which is sooo uncool! u just know if the mummy die, the movie ends!hence, they should hav just made a build up to the mummy gaining power before the let the character chase after it! just like in the prequels. thats where u can add soo much twist and turns. which leads to the next point.

the dashings!-Brandon Fraser and Luke Ford.

the movie lacks its much sought-after mystique!other den how the emperor story started, nothing was told about the 'eye of the shangrila' of that the emperor can be immortal by drinking from the eternal pool.all this just got placed into the story without much introduction. unlike the prequels, the story bascially revolves around the book of the dead and the book of the living. and they explain every single details through out the story! that helps to make sense of everything!such a dissapointment! and they also didnt explain wad happen to the o'connells after the last prequel.suddenly,everything revolves around china.nothing abt how the son grew up and wad not all. haaaaiiizzz....

The awesome -Jet Li as Emperor Han

last but not least, the movies isnt the same without rachel weiss!she just fits perfectly into the movie.like how she shows the need for adventure and at the same time displaying a brilliant performance of being fearful yet curious of the unknown! its soo intriging. but the new actress
the ever beautiful rachel weiss and the not-so maria bello as Evelyn

who played 'evelyn' couldnt match up to rachel's standards.besides, rachel weiss is soo much hotter than the new actress. abit of spoilers, there are the icemans and some funny and looney stuff la.which to me help to reduce the dissapointment! but still! haizz...hopefully the next one will be more exciting!

for miss siti. something to bore u with at school. hope u enjoy this one!

moi wedding!

2008-07-23T14:17:00.018+08:00

The groom..broom broom...

Its quite interesting how i met him for the first time. since then i hav nv stop making fun of the way he sit.hes a nice guy,plenty to talk abt and 3rd on the list of my bro-in laws. just incase if u see him walking with another woman, dun panic! hes not cheating on moi, its just his twin brother who works at the same place as me. or maybe....jeng jeng jeng! hahaha!

And we hav the bride with the beloved bridesmaid...

i didnt know this 4 stooges were wearing the same suit till dat sunday morning itself. very cuuute! and when they accompany the bride to the dais, it was very funny la. i was amazed that they just knew wad to do. well-trained! maybe next time we can make them drop petals while acccompanying the bride. how cool is dat! soon my babies will do dat for them! SOON! haha!

And we hav my parents with the bride.

picture perfect! no comments!

and we hav the fasulludi & family.

its a good thing that pictures dun hav smell. coz i haven bathe when i took this picture. busy man wad...look at how much we love manchester united. we even made muddeen wore the jersey! loyalty to the red devil!

and now Kassim P. & family.

please take note,Kassim P. and wife is not in the picture.heh!aniways..i lurve this kind of pictures! its so big..so many faces..so colourful! and somebody bound to make themselves look stoopid! spot me if u can!*hint: tallest are at the back!* so sad, we are running out of boys...soo little nephews...have no fear K.P and family, for nash is here! hidup malbari!

Formalities over, lets hav some fun!

-take note that my comments are meant for ppl to laugh. i believe that jokes are at the expense of people.

thus i shall not take any responsibilities for offended people.-

bridesmaid bujang lapok

grow up gals. the world is at peace now. forget the '\/' sign. its not working..both for making the world at peace and trying to act cute.

our judges for the evening

i still tink i sing better den all of them.no hard feelings, but next wedding..i'll be there amongst them...judging ofcourse. hmmm who shall i kutuk now...

step jambus.

ahahahahahha!-no comments.ahhahahahah!

and now we hav behind-the-scenes footage

from left to right-hafiz, faiz, asri, zack, half a man's body and tahir.(not in picture : nasser and sadiq) rewang2 can be very fun sey. its the best time to catch up with my frens who come to help. and joke abt all the times we bastard each other and jacking abt all the petty things each of us do.the saddest thing is one by one we dissappear..for army and alot of other stuff.we shall lepak one of this days my fellow brothers..whr else but jurong coast!

target practice

wooo! 3 down...4 more (excluding me ofcourse) to go...

extortion in progress.

who else to call upon but the biggest and meanest hustler! me! ahahaha...i tink that moment was pretty funny. the makciks sitting around got kind of pissed we started pulling the chair and all but had quite a laugh when they saw wad we were doing! fun fun fun!

fellow clubbers.

im sure half of them learn dancing from clubbing. the rest of them like me? we kind of just go with the flow...it was fun while it lasted. the ups and down or shud i say cancellation and non-cancellation...gossips and late nights...a very enriching experience in the life of a wedding dancer! ahahha!

lets soothe our sored eyes with nicer photos...

mr musicman

Mr. smart-mamat!

Mr. Singer!

the many version of the infamous nashahrudin. i like to call it versatile or multi-purpose. cool right! i know.

anyways...the wedding went all smooth. after soo much hype and pissed off moments its finally all over.so my parents are half way thru, awaiting for 1 more daughter and 3 gorgeous sons to marry off. weee! life's like all normal again. its quite interesting that the first child's wedding is the most emotional and equip with everlasting memories. i cried when my first sis got married. but i grow up and attain more responsibilities, i realise the purpose of weddings and the actual meaning behind all those extravaganza details.

for me, its the joy of family reunion and coming together to celebrate the invitation of another soul to join our already enormous family tree.you meet new people and new cousins. u get introduced to the tiny cousins and meet the offsprings for recent couples. and u refresh relationships of old ones. i myself nowadays hardly get to meet my family. i meet my frens more often den family,hence i treasure such moments.in addition to that, i seldom go to weddings which is another avenue for me to meet my family.furthermore, u see alot of people eating and merry-making, taking alot of pictures to freeze the moment so that when we grow old, we can always look back and smile.

sometimes i feel sad for people who got very small families. its not as exciting as a big family.we hav pros and cons but imagine people from all walks of life who is related to you. its like soo much easier to connect to them and share our experiences. haiz...till those moments again!

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

2008-07-21T15:34:00.001+08:00

MyHeritage: Family trees - Genealogy - Celebrities - Collage - Morph

2008-07-17T09:16:00.003+08:00

http://www.gfov.blogspot.com/ check this out.

A level has been really hard on me. i rather have a bullet shot through my head. BECAUSE, the headache feels like somebody is pushing a bullet through your brain. slowly..centimeter by centimeter. and you can feel that cold metallic sides brushing against your veins and whatever my brain is made of.

ok maybe something less sadistic. its like as if my head is a bell. and somebody knocks this bell every few seconds. thong...thong...thong...YES! throbbing pain. but what the hell, its a price i have to pay for all the times i had fun and not study for the past 3 years. i knew it was coming, its just a matter of time.

anyways, my nieces came yesterday, after a very long time. i dunno, its just instinct that i decided to come home early yesterday. just knew there was a calling for me to go home early and spend sometime with those lil angels. i was reading a book when zara came knocking at my door.

'heyyy zaraa...masok..masok'...,i said.
'mama shah!'...,zara replied
'dah makan 'chikeng'(chicken) belom?'...,i asked.
'no..with potato'...,she answered.
'why you never go school'...,i said
'because kakak nv go school..i want that one..yang fish tu'...,she said, pointing to a box full of marbles.
'zaara..wad is mama shah name?'...,i questioned her.
'dunno'...,she said!
'you forgot mama shah eh?'...,i said in a sad tone.
'nooo..hahaha'...,she replied happily.
'zaraa sayang mama shah?'...,i asked her.
she didnt answer and continue playing with the marbles.
'wei!'...,i shouted and nudged her.
'zara sayang mama shah'...,she shouted with that cuuute smile!

it was this conversation that i realised how much she has grown. she could speak properly, count to 20, and the best of all she understood what she was saying and what it meant to me. she used to say it because i whispered it into her ear. but no, she answered willingly. im sooo happy! then! when she was going home, i was still reading, so i said 'bye!!' and she replied. and ran out to the hall. moments later she ran back and said 'bye' again! argh! very adorable. very very adorable.

its just so fun to have small people around you.innocent little souls who will believe what you tell them, which will shape their thoughts and their actions when they grow much older. that's why i like to make my nieces jump from a table to me.-fareesha did jumped and even clapped her hand after it.very adorable!-so that they wont be scared, so that they know they could trust me and believe that i will always be there to catch them when they fall. -and i don't pilih kasih, i do this to all my nieces.- and soon to come nephew!!! muahahah!

perfect ending to a stressful day.

ATH-SJ1

2008-07-14T14:39:00.005+08:00

ever heard of great news?!

im sure you do.

i got something even better!

My beloved ATH-SJ1 AudioTechnica Monitor Headphones are back in business!

As good as new,baby!

YES! i repaired it myself. its just a simple procedure that i had to do. which i took along time to realise and figure out. stoopid,i know. but still, the keyword here is i figured it out by myself. i happen to be sitting on the train looking at some D**khead using the same set as me.I got pissed because i had to make do with the default creative piece. Sooo...BRAIN BLAST! Eureka! the idea just popped and i wasted neither a pence nor time and headed to the nearest electronic store for materials.

its just a simple procedure. you need...

for those who dunno, its a pair of scissors,knife,cheap earphones and soldier.

yes,that 'red handle poking-looking device' is called a soldier.

and ofcourse the most important thing of all...
right miss emmj?

take ur pick.

u still get the same person.

i just need to rewire the headpieces to this new wire.its dat! simple.anyways....

its just soo irritating to see this people using the same set. they would give this weird look as if saying 'eh?! u using the same as me?! wadever, dude!' __, i did researh on those headphones.i tested the headphones before i even bought it. i knew its specifications by heart. and i knew exactly what i was looking for. and im sure those poseurs saw me using it and rush to the nearby hardware store looking for it.-*gives sarcastic look*- like what Sean Taylor, leader of AT&T Drumline, said and i quote 'you can look like me,but your never going to play like me'. BAM! slap to the face.

and this trend of imitating me is becoming a trend itself in school.HAH! i came to school happily one day listening to the crystal-clear treble and heart-thumping bass filled new headphones. and 2 days later, i saw some guy, with something similar.except its just abit bigger. ouh..so not cool. and just now,i saw this dude i dun like in school, with headphones also. haaai...i need to do something. but look on the brighter side!, im leaving school soon, den..the whole world will follow me. big dreams...i know.

lets end of with some love shall we...

the reason i breath everyday.

so that i could sit at my house awaiting her laughter to make my day.

yes, ofcourse.You too Miss EMMJ.
argh! im so happy today! everyday.

rugby lives forever

2008-07-11T21:03:00.009+08:00

Ah Chuan - Saha

I would like to dedicate one of my tries today to this 2 souls.

It's just ten percent luck

Twenty percent skill

Fifteen percent concentrated power of will

Five percent pleasure

Fifty percent pain

And a hundred percent reason to remember the name

(Quote: Remember The Name ,Fort Minor)

I walk in the field with nothing to offer.Comes coach who jumpstart me by throwing me into a game. Inspired by the actual gameplay, driven by the will to outwit and outplay, i nurtured under this two people. They taught me every trick in the book,hoping that i would bring in the medals when the time comes. But nothing happened.

We were all sadden that our closest attempt for glory was shut out.That day will always be remembered. How the Titans fight, dripping blood and sweat. Luck just wasn't on ourside.No medals, no glory. A sad day in the pioneer MI rugby history.

Smiles were on this two faces, they had achieve what they wanted. It wasn't the medals that they yearn for but 15 people to came together from all walks of life and achieve the impossible. To create a team of versatile and discipline gentlemen to play rugby. And they had 15 of them to showoff to the world like medals.

One could throw punches, kick somebody's back, stomp an ankle and even break a leg in a rugby game. But it takes pure discipline to not do it. If one could accomplish that, then, despite the scoreline, he's a winner.

enough about rugby.enough about rugby.enough about rugby.enough about rugby.enough about rugby.enough about rugby.enough about rugby.

just last week, i encountered selfish souls who would not give up their seats on the mrt to a pregnant lady. yes, its irritating but the world is like that. But good samaritans do exist. like yesterday, this lady on the bus spotted a schoolboy looking all frail and pale. So when she pushed me to get to that boy, i thought like 'excuse me?!be patient'. but then when i saw she focus her attention on the boy by getting him a seat, i was rather 'wow-ed'.*salutes* to the lady in green.

FYI! i was'nt seated and my back was facing the boy. and its not that i saw and ignored him.

and so here i am at work,blogging. and if by chance farah walks in.thats just as good as me going home. which im rather looking forward to. i miss working here, at the same time i hate to work here.maybe its just how boring things can get on a normal shift.but how lively things can get when the overlapping shifts comes. like today we haavvve Azy and fadly. and even val is coming to work. yes,kash, when u read this i'll be smiling.just wait and see!

kash.screw you.i cant blog when people are watching.hah!

i was smoke-free for 4 days but i tested myself.tried to smoke, but i couldn't finish a whole cigarette. woooooo! I now declare myself as an occasional smoker. Atleast its one step closer to being smoke-free. Or im just trying to find a reason to lit up.Only i know!haha! but i swear, just 1 day of no ciggies showed alot of difference. or maybe im just much fitter then them, comparing our belly sizes!

I ~~SHALL~~ WILL STUDY WHEN I ~~HAVE TIME~~ AM IN SCHOOL AS WELL AS AT HOME.
RUGBYRUGBYRUGBYRUGBYRUGBYRUGBYRUGBYRUGBYRUGBYRUGBYRUGBYRUGBYRUGBYRUGBYRUGBY
I ~~SHALL~~ WILL STUDY WHEN I ~~HAVE TIME~~ AM IN SCHOOL AS WELL AS AT HOME.

THE KEYWORDs: READ BETWEEN THE LINES.

2008-07-10T20:40:00.004+08:00

quote of the day has to be! *drumroll!*

-why me why me?!-

...ahahaha...

while i was walking home just now, got this chink dude playing basketball,den he took a break went to his dog which was tied to the fence. the first thing i thought was, how boring it has to be just to stand there and watch.then! he played with the dog abit and when the game was about to continue, he went 'sit! sit!'...ouch! i mean...dun treat the dog like a dog : eventho he is one. (take note i used 'he' instead of 'it'..why?! because dogs have gender too..idiot.)

i tried to put myself in the shoes of the dog. if somebody tell me to sit?! i wld just say-here take this 20 cent. run along now. ur no match for me- BAM! wad a slap in the face. Anyways i am sure the dog is just doing so because the guy is stupid enough to feed him food and give him shelter. i mean..if the dog is so fed up, he could just jump up bite the dude's balls off and hav it for dinner and look for another owner. heh! the moral of the story, dun tell me wad to do. aahahahaha!

i feel very happy today.

as u all know, my sis got married recently. i shall blog abt that soon once i get all my materials in hand. here is a preview.

yes guys. im holding a mic. thats how happening it was.
and i dont sound like a frog. i got to round 2. hah!

anyways, i didnt got into the endless cyberworld for 3 days, because of the wedding.so when it comes to checking mail, i expected it to be ways less of a chore, since hotmail is all BETA now. -wooooahhhhddever!- in the end, it was just non-junk mails and i had to wait for more den 30 mins just for the page to load. Beta version sucks. i prefered the old version which will refresh and refresh. so wad if i had to wait..atleast i know the page is going to load. pantat!

just dat for 30 mins+.

like ms emmj says 'eee! irritating nye!'

anyways, as streetsmart as i can be, im just not so posh as to go to coffeebean or starbucks for coffee. i get my coffee at home or at coffeshop la. so i kind of felt stupid when i had to order my drink. it was a simple ice something macchiato.

'so..erm..i went like..i want dat ice..erm..macho?! mucha lucha?! makki-ato! ' the guy helped me with that last word. thanks. Venti! hah! dat i know! u know wads the best part?! i didnt get wad i order. it was actualli something else. because the drink i ordered had cubes but i wanted ice-blended. in the end we had the same drink after all.

-caramel ice-blended frapuccino! i tink i dunno! -

(no pun intended)

argh! i could have just said 'im having wad shes having.' wouldnt dat makes me feel much smarter!? like more ooooooo...hahaha!

ALERT!!

padang shield.

this saturday,

SRC Vs. SCC

@ the padang,

5pm (i tink).

its going to be

awesome!

2008-07-09T16:34:00.002+08:00

To daughter of emmj,

saaaayang dier!

-mr shady

i'm dun feel afraid anymore!
bang! bang!

2008-07-01T09:09:00.003+08:00

As i said that i wanted to continue from the previous post abt soccer...FORGET IT! Euro08 is over.Spain emerge champs.For me,this euro isnt so happening.i still remembered 4 years back i would stay up late to catch every bloody match.maybe because we were all busy betting both from Singapore Pools and bookies in school. YES!, im not kidding, we have bookies in my secondary school.but its like so much fun. come lunch time, everybody will scramble to E305 or E306.

i like the news! just not the writers.

somehow somebody always have the day's Newpaper because they hav the latest odds for the day.5 mins spent on reading the paper, another 2 mins asking the school's soccer pundit and 2 mins to discuss with my frens, and the next minute to decide myself. after dat, bets down, we all go back to class and pray we get a small fortune that nite. WWWOOOOOO! fun. and we hav the final match telecasted live in the school hall! thats how enthusiastic we were. i was rooting for portugal, while dhil was with greece. unbelievably, greece won dat nite. Boooooringg!

i've been painting alot for the last 3 months. my own hse and sis hse.i didnt know weddings wld hav soo much work to do.this has to be the most taxing wedding for me.to add on to that there is school and work. BUT! work is over.Exams just around the corner-15 more weeks- and like so faaaarr away! i dun feel like studying.i just had enough of studying. its amazing how saha says he miss studying in school. maybe i wld hav that feeling too when i go into the army but for now...I HATE STUDYING! moving on...

it's like i'm looking at a distant planet.very dark,cold and mysterious. unfamiliar surroundings yet again eventho it happened twice b4. its just so scarry to let loose my life on the hands of someone else. trust is the magic word here people which i hav build up.its not easy but its worth it while it last.wad im afraid of is getting hurt.

Should i step on that distant planet once again, or risk falling into the depths of space.

2008-06-22T19:00:00.003+08:00

condolences to my headphones. a reputable companion.

the best i've ever had.

april 2008-june 2008

i hav this tendency to repair my stuff. ok not just my stuff,practically any thing that i think i can fix. and sad to say, many didnt survive. but those who did led a good life. haha! itchy fingers. but its just fun.my dad can repair alot of stuff. so since i was small i look and learn. and i want to do it too uh. temptation.

SCHOOL starting tmr!! yays!! and BOOOs!

i seriously have to study. its been fun procastinating. thinking of reason like..its still early..ouh im busy...i got work...birthdays..wadever la eh. den again temptation kicks in.

i need to stop smoking.its a waste of money. i tink many wld agree that this is like the many countless times i tried. it will jus nv work. and as usual i wld say..dis is not like the last time,its for real.dun laugh at me..its not help..u shud support me instead.

guess wad! if u guys do think like dat...den i will say the exact samething again. i cant tink of any other excuse.

anyways, there has been alot of hoo-haa abt portugal in euro 08, especially on ronaldo. its just astonishing how contradicting the newpaper kakis can be. at the end of 0708 epl season,they were all busy wrecking their vocabulary to praise this dude.

yet even b4 the end of their to euro, everybody was busy busting his ass. while they are winning during the groupstages, all was well.very objective words. den poof!,when they lost to germany, out of all the 11 players, C.ronaldo gets blamed for ball watching, for now scoring. please give him a break. if he is such a superplayer, we wont hav to bitch abt him.like many other..hes just a good player.

so stay off him. hes gold and u guys know it. dun hate the player man...hate the game.

to be continued...

piracy

2008-06-16T11:26:00.002+08:00

Currently im downloading like 11 new movies to watch for the next 2-3 weeks.

hence i just have to remind my readers that we should all work together to stop piracy. As u all know there hav been many modes of piracy; microsoft piracy *haha*,movies piracy,cigarette piracy, and ever since china opened their first factory, pirating of products was in full force!

wld u look at that!! they tried to even rip off starbucks.

A whole coffee house man.*appalause*

usually piracy comes hand in hand with child labour, but child labour has decrease over the years ever since many stars decided to help stop its widespread. but piracy zindabad! (long-live piracy!) i hav to admit, i hav saved at least a thousand dollars just on the PC thru piracy.yet i wonder why does the ex-world richest man*(read report below) is still soo rich! thats because hes selling his product waay to expensive.no doubt its a good software but if u had sell it at $40, i would hav bought it instead of getting a pirated copy. Thus piracy decreases.

Its so expensive, you go to hell for buying it.

i tink its ridiculous that people try to make money by upselling the materials because of their brand name.i just pity people who doesnt make money through their efforts. Michael jackson for example.hes a thru star. people try to extort him with all sort of claim, ruining his dignity along the way.its like giving peter pan cocaine! precisely, in peter pan's world, there is no cocaine to snort.

im just saying here that we should stop piracy only if the cost of living decreases worldwide. i dun want to be super rich! i just want to be happy for all of the time that im spending on earth. and im very sure those children in war-torn countries would want the same thing. please,i dun mind working for it.

would you just sit there and watch?

back to MJ. its a sad story that he is now a bankrupt and reportedly living in Bahrain and converting to islam. i was quite shock to hear him sing a song abt islam, but all this is rumours.its can only be justified when he tell it himself. aniways,the purpose of this entry is to show you u guys that we indian are not lagging behind the world. just like china, we can do piracy too! and with style! enough of products, we can even make copies of your favourite stars. dont believe me? check this video out...

if you cant see the video (u cock!) <--click here

This aint no bullshit man. its for real. i cant believe my eyes too!
-the black version of MJ-

The End. dun forget to read the report below abt bill gates not making it to the top spot!
Hence, i've said enuff for the today.

(report below here)*Billionaire Mukesh Ambani today became the richest person in the world, surpassing American software czar Bill Gates, Mexican business tycoon Carlos Slim Helu and famous investment guru Warren Buffett, courtesy the bull run in the stock market.Following a strong share price rally on in his three group companies, India's most valued firm Reliance Industries, Reliance Petroleum and Reliance Industrial Infrastructure, the net worth of Mukesh Ambani rose to $63.2 billion (Rs 2,49,108 crore).

In comparison, the net worth of both Gates and Slim is estimated to be slightly lower at around $62.29 billion each, with Slim leading among the two by a narrow margin.
The five richest people in the world with their net worth
1. Mukesh Ambani ($63.2 billion)
2. Carlos Slim Helu ($62.2993 billion)
3. William (Bill) Gates ($62.29 billion)
4. Warren Buffett ($55.9 billion)
5. Lakshmi Mittal ($50.9 billion)

Report as of 29/10/07 quoted of Business Standard.

take note, 2 of the top 5 are indians. like russel peters said, we are growing,you may run now but someday, we are going to hump you.

and a note to mr gate, learn from the indians. if you dont want people to pirate your products, sell it cheap.

2008-06-15T20:05:00.002+08:00

After much speculations,Knight Shady found his horse and rode it back to the shores of blogspot for the X season. i miss blogging.

much have passed. i was just browsing thru my past posting..reading and recounting all those memories. like how i tried hard to convince my readers that i was planning to pass my exams so that i could get promoted and move to the current MI campus.

gosh den i had dreams of playing A divs rugby with the whole school watching and the titans beating the crap out of the neighbourhood JCs. im just grateful that dream didnt happened. FYI we sucked real bad for the past 2 season. enough for rugby.

my life updates..still in school for the 4th year but finally sitting for A levels. and Sitting doesnt necessarily mean i will get straight As...i had to remind myself. gone for medical check up shud be going for NS by december, im obese if u guys still remember.

just search for 'sounds of hell' on youtube. the debate is on. has hell been found?

2008-02-01T12:23:00.001+08:00

Leonidas At Thermopylae

based on

Battle of Thermopylae

A very inspirational piece for me. To uphold honour and glory. To be strong and hard. A symbol of courage against overwhelming odds.

2008-01-24T11:46:00.000+08:00

I'll do anything to attain Claire Bennett's

power right now.

Heal...heal quickly.

2008-01-20T21:40:00.000+08:00

To be remembered only for the right reasons.

As the truth unfolds,agitation be present.

As the concerning unrolled,pain was felt.

Losing someone was a hundred percent painful.
And the other half is letting go of them.

Fill it, cock it,

for there is only one last thing to do..

pull the goddamn trigger...

2008-01-15T11:04:00.000+08:00

the night man utd won 6-0 against newcastle, i assumed it was cheat dat for me. it went on free flow. somehow now i feel that atleast i got some control on it. im able to choose whether to do it or not to do it.but a small percentage of the time i give in to temptation.

i like to play with fire.while at work yesterday, i was constantly lighting up candles and playing with the alcoholic gel. it just gives me something to look at. dats cool.

i dun feel like studying. i feel like wad im doing is wrong. as if im not at the right pace and im studying the wrong thinsgs. im being indecisive about my approach to the whole syallbus. on one hand its study every topics and on the other its concentrating on core topics. i dun want to make a mistake of not meeting the deadline or missing out on crucial topics. its too late to try things out. and i cant afford to make a rash decision only to change at the last minute. damn.

somehow, i feel that shopping for things helps to get my mind off things. this is so wrong. but i dont care.im going to get myself an mp3 and a nice hoody. forget the psp. its taking too long, aniways im not too interested in games also and i cant bear travelling without music.

2008-01-11T19:38:00.000+08:00

its a new year. 2008. alot of things to do. one of them,im quitting cigarattes.

10 days in 3 ciggies burned.

-------

SLOW DANCE
Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done !
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,'Hi'
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

--------

try for once to see things from my eyes.

dat way i wont be deem to be so bad.

now i need a drag...

2007-11-10T09:41:00.000+08:00

NY Subway Girl Found!!

Mr Patrick Moberg saw this girl in Ny subway falls in love. he couldnt muster enuff courage to talk to her. by when he does, shes gone. So he ended up making a website for her. posing up detailed drawings so that the people can help find her. one day a girl called him up telling him that she thinks the NY girl is her friend and send a picture. JACKPOT! its the very same one by the name of Camille Hayton, an intern from BlackBook, Australia.

They had their first dinner two days ago. And according to moberg, 'click'. Now that is wad i call a rare love story. totally something out of the movies! Girls out there,you think such antics is pure lunacy or straight out of the romantic books?? I personally think it takes a whole lot of courage to go up to a girl and say hie but the do further than that,its kinda falls into 'stalk'ship. Well its a good thing that the girl didnt freak out and rather handled it gracefully. Maybe she did that because they are under the media spotlight.It would hav cause an outrage had she been negative about it.

So guys out there if u want to meet a girl badly,do something stupid and make sure u get media coverage. And girls out there,if u wanna make urself known for quite some time...ooooo ditch him..right there and den. even better if he commits suicide 2 days later. that lad deserve the 'ditch-by-a-bitch' story. Just couldnt keep his own penis in his pants. he just had to shoooww! it to the world! haha.

2007-11-06T23:49:00.000+08:00

calling all resident of 05S7,05S8!

u are cordinally invited to attend a lepaking session at the Great Fuji Ice Palace in recognition of the years we had spent together. in short..ade gathering ar dok.

Organizer : Puan/Datin/Cik/Ms/Mdm Siti Nurulhuda

Kepo : Nash

invited: if ur name is in the register or 05S7 05S8 ur invited. we will mark attendance.

and this is not PE whr u can skip half way.it has to be a full day thing. will update more on dat ok! for now nites!

2007-10-28T20:12:00.000+08:00

did u know?..

nash blogged 20 days ago. amazing!

out of dat 20 days! i've meet numerous new nice people ;) listen to new soothing hindi song and many others. even sang one to a girl. fought with frens. did many bad things. msged siti nurulhuda who tried to bribe me with free gym passes-muahaha! just kidding ar. burned 4 movies legally by my means, not by the world(downloaded even more). met up and spend a whole day with my secondary school mates. which i haven done in two years. im a true blue 'bubbler/buih'. played and watched rugby. oogle at manchester united beat two BPL teams 4-1 consecutively. laughed at liverpool lost in the uefa 1st leg.

i feel like going on a mission.i realised dat there is 2 kind of boys in this world. one who is just plain lazy and just wanna drift thru life and the other who wants to hav an adventurous and unpredictable life. the ratio i think is 1:1. i've got mixed feedback on whether to go to army or CD/police. some told me to just take a step back and chill during my years serving singapore but the other half convince me partially to go and have an adventure during national service. for me, i realli wanted to join army. hold a gun, learn about jungle and urban warfare. train to survive in the wild. once im equip with such skills, i wld love to dissappear in the jungles of malaysia for hiking or camping. man that wld definitely be better den going on a holiday. its just this instinct i have to get in touch with the wild. too much concrete for the past 19 years of my life.

back on track! rugby! this coming weekend. its my last last competition to play as a 19 year old. before i leave the school for good. that rugby will still continue in my blood. all those bashing and side stepping wont be over till my body fail me. which i tink isnt anitime soon. i just cant wait to get my license man. there is soo many things that i could do at nite rather than sit at home. unlike most people, i prefer to just drive around and unwind the windows. let the cool breeze push all the stress out of me. den maybe call up afew frens and head out to our neighbours, malaysia, for a late nice snack and pump in the petrol before we continue our hectics like for the rest of the week.

long runs on the highways..

stress lull by the cool breeze..

soothing music softly plays..

hectic life comes to a stand still.

2007-10-08T09:48:00.000+08:00

WHICH IS DIRTIER?

Definitely the question that is on everbody's mind for ages. i felt like i should state my opinion because its just a very interesting topic for someone who plays both soccer and rugby.

It is a well known fact that rugby is a contact sport.Probably a risky one too because there isn't much protection except for mouthguards and a little padding than compared to American Football. But the players tend to make it up by beefing up their bodies the legal way and not to godly proportions. The hard knocks, tackles, diving and tussle in a scrum might seems like very rough by an untrained eye. But the basics of rugby teaches the right way to play the game without hurting yourself and your opponent under controlled conditions.But in a game itself, it is a totally different scene. Tempers flair! And players snapped, which leads to a variety of dirty tricks.

Props slapping each other in the scrum (me personally), flankers blocking the opposition scrumhalf during the scrum(taught as a cheat but cannot be seen by the referee), centres blocking their opposition during a box-kick(Luke McAllister got a yellow for that) and the feared of all stomping in a ruck. I got stomped in the face before and it is not really a nice feeling mentally and physically.

In the beautiful game of football its very easy to be dazzled by the swift legs of Brazil's Pele, switching hips of Argentina's Maradona and the tactical mind of Germany's Franz Beckenbauer. Everybody knows that football combines the world and divide them into teams. Every boy dreams to play in the soccer leagues. Every man dreams to manage a World Cup winning team. As years went by new players steps in and change the game as a whole.Tackles get dirtier, spitting and swearing is a must at every pause of the game, elbows and kung fu kicks fly and the infamous 'penalty' dive.

So what now? Both sports have their bad points. How do we decide who misbehave alot more? Simple. Its how the players react to their punishment for their raunchy deeds and how much respect they give to the 'Kings' of the Game. Yes! The referee. Ruggers generally have much more respect for the referee.They obey and hardly talk back when calls and decision were made. And when a rugger is given the coloured colours, its taken in like a gentleman and walk off the field as instructed. On the other hand, footballers are a more temperamental sportsmen. Vulgarities and threats are thrown at the referee and they wouldnt think twice about making the fellow rule-keeper look like a fool. The alarming note is that such actions are on the rising and making more headlines. From my point of view most soccer player deserve a 'fan-run-in-and-smack-your-face' punishment for each and every time they misbehave.

I think it is quite clear which is more dirtier. It's just an opinion. It maybe right and wrong. You decide.

Other news! It has been an upsetting semi-finals. Hot favourites and knock-out early and underdogs and hot in the chase of the cup.

I have a gut feeling to that South Africa might beat Argentina but I want the finals to be as such. A new winner is always nice. And it gives a hell of a kick while watching the match, don't you think so too?

2007-10-04T11:54:00.000+08:00

i went to the market just now. i feel like im one of the few rare breed of men who still goes to the market at the ripe age of 19. my mom tinks that its a way to ensure the quality of husband her son will be. wth! im not gonna cook at home or anything. but its sad to know that i've been doing so since i was in primary 4. go market by myself u know. fierce sia! heh

aniways while i was on my way to the market i pass by this group or primary school kids and i tot,'man..life wld nv change'. i still remember ar when i was in primary school, the difference between chinese and malay students mainly lies in the dressing. chinese dudes tend to wear very shorts school pants and supertight to show their non-existant butts. i tink its because they both the pants to last for the 6 years in primary school ar. damn.

whereas the malay boys is rather quite different.they are always around malay girls man. and u know its hard to see chinese boys with girls.dats coz they are always playing magic cards at macdonalds and wad not all or worst chinese chess.haha!

malay boys tend to very baggy pants.very cool in the eyes of kids.i was one of them heh!and they start having girlfrens at the age of primary three?! its damn cute to tink of it ar. and i cant say that one of them is a paedophile eh. even some boy kiss my niece on her cheek when she was in kindergarten.hahaha! now i will hav to whack dat boy ltr on in life. or keep a close eye on my niece.

but the astonishing thing is that you can hardly see indian boys hanging around.i dunno whr do they dissappear to.but suddenly u see them all grown up and causing alot of trouble.dancing and prancing around under blocks or making 'music' at stadium 'gedeng-gedak!' all!

for me? i still cant decide whether to follow the malays or the indians.its a dilemma at times but it can be an advantage too all the time.even better i speak malay but watch hindi and tamil movies. wooo! how screwed can u get. and i bet to many people it doesnt makes sense also.how cld a malay-talking mudblood understand hindi and tamils movies. guess wad?! i got one word for u assholes who tink like dat. SUBTITLES! dick! muahahaha! but the truth is that i've been watching for soo many years, i kind of picked up the language.not dat i can speak it but i can understand conversational language tho.

i wanna talk about guys in secondary school but im feeling lazy to type. samo its abt time i unleash my fury as a dungeon keeper. aniways SITI NURULHUDA if be going live on 98.7fm tml at 9 am doo catch her and support her for the competition tml. its a trip to meet david blunt in sydney and she promise to bring for me a hot blondie girlfren if she goes there. and im praying like crazy for her to win.haha! gd luck siti!

2007-10-02T23:10:00.000+08:00

im acting as if school is already over! planning not to go school tml. it suck to receive bad results. im just expecting the worst, or more like knowing its the worst. im prepared to go army tho. wait! almost. but still, the stories always makes army life interesting.

its getting truly tired of studying. infact, im getting a hang of life just sitting a home, chilling and play dungeon keeper.

ouh yar talking abt dat,i just dwload this not so new game of dungeon keeper and im hook on like to the max ar. its a type of god-game. and i lovee it man! fighting fighting. building and building and train and train.

and when i goes, 'you have conquered this realm', man dat felt good! always ar!

2007-09-24T21:25:00.000+08:00

exams is over. future looks bleak. im just anticipating the worst. preparing to go army. which means i have to lose weight fast. im at XXkg. double digit sia. dangerous already! i wonder wad army will be like. im going to learn how to use a rifle. heh! finally i can grow out of counterstrike.

my plan is to go private end of next year.if i fail,i haven realli got much choice.A level wasnt realli for me. but ppl can change their destiny right? hmmm lets see. michael jackson became white. george bush got elected as president. Evander Holyfield lost his EAR in a boxing match. And mike tyson started biting in a boxing match.Singapore keeps havin more and more minister acronyms. one truly can change their destiny.

nvm dat. aniways, exams over. rugby matches are always 'live' in the morning. im fasting now. and all my frens hav got A lvls. wad do i do? i've been at home since i dunno lar. just here, strumming the guitar,downloading games, friendster, chatting. wth! its realli the worst time to hav holidays.

i've not been smoking since the begining of fasting month. im realli ready to quit now. eventho i was laugh at when i made the decision again,it hasnt broken my spirit. this is it people,no more relapse.for the people hu had enuff of me saying dat im going to quit,this is the last time im telling u im quitting. atleast give me some words of encouragement pls rather den counting down to when i'll rush to the shop to buy a pack of viceroy. pls believe in me ok.

a decision was made because i realise how unhealthy i had been. eating meals late in the nite. sleeping and not exercising. smoking. it has gotten so bad that i start panting when while walking up a gentle slope.its dat bad my frens. and its fucking scarrying the shit out of my asshole! i dun want to suffer in the army, i dun want to die early, i dun want to face heart diseases,diabetes and wad not.its heredity but atleast i can try to avoid that going for it at full speed right.

i want to run. do alo of running. lose all the flabs. buy myself protein, go carry weights. keep my self strong and healthy. its not a promise to other. its a promise to myself. if i dont do it, i failed myself.

guess wad, i had enuff of failing. i want to play rugby like nobody's business.

2007-09-07T19:42:00.000+08:00

It's NEW TEN COMMANDMENTS/

'08 Resolutions

1)it shall not emo anymore

2)it will stop paranoiaing

3)it will accept hard fact

4)it will be stronger

5)it will make everyday fun

6)it wants to be mean and

bitch bitch bitch

about yellow teeth and

others like him/her!

Somehow it kind of

hate him too because it

had to carry him twice

for some bullshit

he made up.

7)it will make it's brother

grow bigger! :D

8)it knows it got

quality waaannn!

9)it will not use

it hands again!

10)it will practice its move

so whoever dun have

to adjust ever again

click here to find some friends. U seem to need one :D

2007-09-05T18:36:00.000+08:00

Sooner or later it would not matter anymore.

it is me.

- dats how i feel

2007-08-26T22:59:00.000+08:00

jealousy,kisses,smiles,dance,talking,breaks,shopping,teasing,argueing,bungaing.

its all that i have.

it hurts. it just hurts.

future, destiny, journey.

turn them all back.

to the begining of time.

from time to time.

over and over.

again and again.

Wabbit<3sturtle

2007-08-24T21:56:00.001+08:00

and you're such a :)

2007-08-12T12:27:00.000+08:00

i have not been studying man. not much ar. its been like music soccer tv lepak and ndp. since it was a long weekend. i kind of got alot of stuff planned. lets recall wad i did.

wednesday- was a half day, national day celebraitions. it wasnt as fun as last year. coz last year i was in the GOH contigent with ddin,diq sirhan salleh jack and wan. ultrafun sia. we did have some fun lar dis year, it was onli when we got back to the hall which was fun. the rest of the celebration was a bored. we were made to watch a movie which i ignore and slept. i was more at the back with saha hardi JY PM and kristen making fun of people and ourselves. heh! after dat, adibulat sirhan syahidah jack jacq wandibah and me went jamming. we might be performing for teachers' day. jason mraz's bella luna.it was abit tweaky at first. and i forgot jacq on the way to alvron which she forgive me willingly because i was nice to her the whole day.muahaha!

thursday-kind of an uneventful day.woke up late and just kept slacking ard. till abt 3 i left for marina square to meet diq! im going for NDP!!! ITs my FIRST TIME going for NDP. even better its a new locationa and wad not! MY FIRST TIME with SADIQ. going to ndp dat is.dun get me wrong, im straight.wakaka. sakinah was on the posters and stuff man,so cool! it was damn awesome ar.the laser effect. i always watch fireworks from the bridge but dis time..it exploded in my face. beautiful man.i'll try and get tickets for next year! i want to go again! and again! den dat nite head home. den my bro had the idea to go sleep over at diq hse. so we pack our bags and left for woodlands.

friday-spent friday early morning just fooling ard..sparring,playing cards and wad not at macdonalds waiting for diq fren to come. he did at 5 am i tink. den we play monopoly which i totally monopolised the whole board. hah! no hard feelings..just doing business! diq surrended at 830am. and went to sleep. till like 11 den everybody parted ways.i went home to change, going out again! hah! met up with darling moon at cck den headed to town. supposedly looking for canterbury bag and rhcp t-shirt. heh! we bought much of other stuff! but it was fun tho with both of us giving each other a mini bunga episode.i still love u alot ok..its because when u bunga u look cute. i liiiiike! hahaha. but realli the dress looks splendid on you,no doubt abt it. we went from cathay to plaza sing to heeren and wisma! den head back home to a tired2 and tired evening and sleep.

i will continue updating on saturday and today soon ok..abit busy now. haha! till den..muaccks!

2007-07-27T21:57:00.000+08:00

'A game for hooligans played by gentlemen'

A quote that should be remembered by heart once any Titan enter the field, regardless of match. I'm sure all of you enjoyed your afternoon scoring tries and putting your skills to the test! But do be reminded that no matter what happens,we are brothers. Competition is not the time for one to boast his ability, but to fine tune and learn new skills as well as have fun. It's common for people to make mistakes or fumble.

It's the ability to recognise and prevent it from reccuring that counts. It's normal to face aggression on the field. It's part of the game. But once you walk out of that tunnel, leave with pride because you know you did your best.The real winners are those who leave the field as improved players.

I would like to thank pariticipants as well as spectators, not forgetting beloved supporters who stayed till the Finals. It's fun playing with the Titans! I sure did enjoy myself! Lets do it again next year!

Results:
1st place : Zircon B

2nd place : Garnet B

3rd place : Zircon A

4th place : Garnet A

~Cheers!

2007-07-02T21:38:00.000+08:00

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
Get me this book and i'll be you slave for a month. that is also after i finishing reading the book and provided i'm happyy with the outcome since its the final of the series. never mind, just get me the book first then we will negotiate.

Its a sad sad moment to know that there will not be a chance to wait eagerly for the next Potter book. there had been many rumours that Potter will die hence deathly gallows being the last book. Dumbledore(god rest his soul) is already dead, special thanks to backstabber Severus Snape(DICK). haha!

Its a funny thing when i recollect it again. A primary school friend of mine, Clement, introduce to me to the world of potter in primary 5 but all he said wasnt captivating enough for me to read. all he said was 'hey read it! its interesting'.i need more pushing than that,especially to read. then, i totally forgot about the book till back in sec 1 when a friend of mine was reading book 1. Out of curiosity, i borrowed the book from the library and started reading. Man, it was intriguing. Then when i started on book 2, the movie for book 1 came out! it just added more spice to the already hot pasta!

but still, the book gave the best kicks! the movie left alot of parts unexplained, especially goblet of fire. this left many bewildered unless they had used their brains to read the book instead. but be warned! the last 3 series ended in suspense. rowling left it hanging. hence its best to watch all 3 movies or read the last 3 books immediately. BUT!! all of that is beside the point. i just want to read the new book. i dun care wad u people tink. hehe!

last but not least...emma watson...haiizz...pretty cute beautiful..just like the sun moon and many many stars. sorry jessica alba, i guess age matters..i got a new girl in my life..her name is none other den..yup! u guessed it right..emma watson. wish i could say dat in my next 7 life times..dont you want too?

tomorrow exams people! go study!
especially you! the black one busy typing on the keyboard! shoo!

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